heres another tv butler.. and this one even has an english accent.. .. this is a old show before my time but its a good butler example..
hey did ne of you guys know what a butler does?
its called butling
sounds weird but its true

for all you guys who dont know who Lurch is heres a little clip off youtube. its an episode thats real fittin for ryan with the piano stuff and the singin. heh heh heh. coupla things to look for when comparin ryan to lurch. first the musical skill.. .. second the way he reacts when the record guy wants to make him a star but the main thing is when the girls start goin crazy for him. watch the butler boys reaction. when he looks out the window thats ryan straight up! lol.. .. enjoy this. ive laughed until my sides hurt!

i guess i shouldnt have gone nuts on here
theres alot worse things than finding out you do have a dad
or a father.. .. or whatever he is
so far nothing to me
but who knows
i posted what i was feelin and i should have waited until i had calmed down
im ok for now
im healin up from my party for one
ryans still worried about me
but that doesnt stop him from playin tricks on me
i found out about dettol yesterday morning
here michael im just gonna put a little soap and water on your back
like ive been doin ever since you hurt yourself
and then sizzle
now i can hack it
all i did was shudder a little cause it surprised me
but boy oh boy did he make a big deal of that
you flinched!  he says to me
well duh
i was expectin water
water and dettol are NOT the same thing
so he keeps needlin me for fun and flashin that dumb fool grin of his
all i said to him was just you wait
and im not sorry for callin you lurch buddy
game back on
all bets off.. .. ..
with that beard and all im gonna change your name to eddie munster
go figure that out butler boy
lol
im feelin a wrestlin match comin on
and im feelin like a winner too
anyways.. .. ..
im not gonna do nething about the father thing
im not that damn curious
and i dont need it.. like adie said in his comment.. (oh and thanks adie!) some things are better left alone.
ive got a life to live and a heart to figure out
who needs more complications
oh and the new pic is me Adie
thats from the cruise we went on a few months back
ryan posted his so i thought id do mine
just to show im better lookin lol
oh god.. im a quillin failure
i suck at doing crafty crap
but MsV never gives up lol
She pulls out this big box of all colored paper strips and some little tool thing that looks like a hypodermic needle with a wooden handle and this board of circles and says im gonna make some cards
oh man.. .. ..
first i cant get the paper around the needle thingie
then after i do my circles are more like ovals with bends
i was at this for three hours
and i dont think im ne better at it than i was
why am i doin this?
cause She says to
i think puttin a kink in my tail gives Her a charge
mmm hmm
i cooked some food the other night
brit food - and it turned out decent
MsV said it was good
ryan didnt have my main meal cause hes a vegetable
i made steak and kidney pie
i love steak.. .. and kidney is ok i guess.. .. tastes like turkey giblets
i wouldnt eat it on its own.. .. blech!
im gonna go
sorry i was such a pissy pants last time
im ok
im over the shock.. .. 
i guess the people makin decisions had their reasons
im gonna leave it at that.

mm mm mm michael
(thats for you princess chauncey)

im not gonna go too into it
sayin it upsets me is a fuckin understatement.. .. ..
i got told a few nights ago
that my mom DID know who my dad was
but never told me
and told auntie not to tell me until i was in my mid twenties
i know now.. ..
auntie told me his name and some other details..
but i wish like fuck she hadnt
i feel numb
i feel angry
i feel like breakin things and breakin myself
i feel cheated
and then i dont feel anything all over again.. .. ..
get this.. .. ..
the guy knows NOTHING about me
he doesnt even know i exist
he never knew he got my mom pregnant..
she never told him!!!
somehow the fuckers family life was more important to everyone than my need for a dad
see.. .. .. as the bitch of a story goes.. ..
the guy that won the lucky sperm lottery was a married guy
so im not happy with all this bullshit
for the first time in my life im REAL PISSED OFF at my mom
i mean.. .. .. WHAT THE FUCK?
what about the little boy that needed a father huh????
what about the kid who noticed that everyone else seemed to have a dad at the games to cheer em on?
what about the little boy who needed a good male role model huh????
what about ME for fuck sake?
i wish like hell i could go back and not know a damn thing
it was a hell of alot easier when he was nameless and no one
i wanna turn back the clock and not be told nething
ive done what i can to let out my feelins
but of course that shocks the shit outta ryan
he doesnt get the need to bleed
he doesnt understand that pain is therapeutic
hes in the dark and thinks im going mental
a god damn lunatic.. .. thats what he thinks i am now..
so what do i do?
jackshit.. .. .. thats what
i dont wanna know him
i dont care if hes dead or alive or fuckin stray animals on a dare
ryan says its not his fault cause he didnt know
i dont fuckin care
im mad at my mom
my mom whos been dead for nearly 19 years
but ffs mom.. .. that little five year old boy you left behind sure as fuck coulda used a daddy
didnt you even think about that for five god damn seconds?
what in hell was the point in tellin me now when im a grown man?
thats like throwin a life preserver in 2007 to one of the people lost on the Titanic
ive gotten by thanks to auntie.. .. and im not sayin i dont love her and appreciate her
she did the best she could with me.. .. all by herself
but why in hell didnt anyone care enough?
did they think the bastard wouldnt have anythin to do with me?
hell if i know.. ..
a friend of mine told me to sit on this a while and give it a chance to settle in
actin on anything right now could be a bad move
found out that ryan and MsV even knew
when auntie was livin here she told em.. .. ..
aint that a crock of feces?
instead of the wife.. .. i guess its the son thats always the last to know
im so fuckin screwed in the head.. .. ..
i need a hug but im too angry to let anyone near me
ryan is driving me apeshit by worryin and lookin concerned
hes just hangin around and hoverin over me like he did MsV when She was preggers
somebody help me..
i feel like im drowning
nevermind.. dont..
im better off dead

ryan came home on thursday and weve been forcin him to take it easy
today his parents were here for sunday roast dinner
well it was mostly ok.. ..
ryans mother was pretty docile compared to her normal excitable chatterbox behavior
i guess lurch musta talked to her
and convinced her that she was makin little lurch vewee nurvus
poor ryan
he says to her at our luncheon
mother i dont want any ch.. ch.. chi.. chi..
i couldnt help myself
i just said it
chicken
he means chicken
MsV and MrsLurch shot me a nasty look
and i gave them my truest puppy dog eyes that said
im only tryin to help
ryan doesnt seem to care if i help him finish his words sometimes
when his mom isnt around he hardly ever stammers.. ..
but they were here from noon until about an hour ago
so ryan was stumblin over all his hard c and k sounds and his ch sounds most of the day
i felt sorry for him.. .. even if he hates it when i do..
me and ryan are in the great room again but we dont have the telly on
hes readin to himself and lookin sleepy.. ..
we arent lettin him do nething around here
MsV let him have his stitching and his books and that crocheted afgan his mom made when he was a kid
hes got his beddy bear if he gets cold
(yeah i put it in the microwave for a minute forty-five and its nice and toasty)
i have one too.. .. his is blue.. .. mine is brown like a real bear..
i only use mine if i have a cold or a muscle cramp
the great room has this huge sectional and weve been campin out here some nights
just since hes been home.
its nice cause of the fireplace
even tho lately it hasnt felt cold enough for a big fire
theres still fireworks like crazy but not as many as last night
i cooked me and MsV some bangers n mash tonight
i put the cooked potatoes in fionas food processor
and it sorta turned em to pureed potato lol.. .. reallly creamy
but She said it was good.. .. rah cheer!
and adie.. .. me and ryan are still sendin good thoughts for andrews mom

lots good stuff
michael

i dont have alota time today so this is gonna be short
i didnt stay the night with ryan last night and MsV isnt home yet
so i dont know if theres anythin new to report
i guess ill go with the old 'no news is good news' theory
its about 7:30am and i made myself a tuna and sweetcorn sandwich for breakfast
i know.. .. sounds disgustin
but i dont really have to eat breakfast food at breakfast
im not the sorta person who has to be eased into eatin
im ready for anythin most of the time
im a nut for cold pizza the mornin after
and i dont think im the only one
(he says grabbin a handful of hula hoops and stuffin em in his face)
lol
i have some assigned work to do today and then im gonna be up at the hospy seein my bro whos damn cute when hes sleepin  ::awe::  cant wait to see him
yesterday fiona tried to show me how her and ryan do the orderin of supplies for the houshold
damn its intricate
doin an organized shoppin thing isnt one of my strong points neway
i think she lost patience with me bein 'thickheaded' about it lol
she says 'you certainly arent ryan'
well
doh!
and hes not me
were a matchin set that compliment each other
im the ying for his yang
the butter on his toast
the wheels on his car
and the tights for his tutu (lol -- maybe not)
::looks at tuna sandwich and wonders whats REALLY in it::
im one wild and crazy guy   (that steve martin guy was really funny)
talk to yall later

mikey boy
(and the ever present but currently at rest - captain fantastic)

everyday is a day thats never been lived
so far today is a day with no mistakes in it
im not countin on it stayin that way
gotta be some mistakes in every day somewhere
neway.. .. ..
ive spent the last few nights up at the hospital with ryan
hes doing better
last night he felt good enough to play mastermind with me
even tho hes 'poorly' i didnt let him win all the games lol
hes tryin hard to be in good spirits
but i think neone that knows him knows hes havin a hard time
in his family theres so much emphasis put on not gettin your feathers ruffled
the stoic stuff cant be great for you in the long run can it?
i dont dare bring up the subject of music or his oboe
and im not gonna talk about that on here.. .. ..
its a concern is all im gonna say
somethin im sorta worried about
a friend of mine has been lookin at ryans astrological star chart thingie
(dont ask me cause i dont know nething about that sorta stuff)
and She says hes on his Saturn Return
i had to ask what that was so She explained it
its damn complicated all that stuff
but what i get of it is that ryans life is in for a lota change
and three plus years of hell
She says i cant help him
the most comfortable thing for me to say is
ohh i dont believe in this shit lol
but it seems like theres alot more to all this than readin the little bit in a newpaper or magazine
and guess when this return started?
She says about the time i arrived here
well damn.. .. .. that says it all
im BAD news!
oh i dont know.. ..
theyre sayin that ryan should be able to come home on medicines the end of the week
he didnt wanna be there from the start
after a day in the hospital we left him alone the first night
the nurses said it would be for the best and he needed rest
but that little bugger
he tried to self discharge at about 10 that night
they called the house and MsV and me went up there
ive been stayin the night with him ever since.
my new job:  watchdog
im tired but ok
i come home in the mornin from being with ryan all night
and then try to do some of his work and mine
fiona is workin her ass off
but hell if im tellin that to senor worry wart
life goes on ffs
ill write more soon when i get a chance

love
mikey

i havent posted here in a long time.. .. ..
most of my posts in the past have been sorta jovial and good for a laugh
but i have a serious side too
and youre gonna meet that side today..
in the past few weeks ive learned some things
things that people have tried to point out but i guess i didnt see
ive been told lots of things about myself
some of em i agree with
others i dont
but all these things ive been told
are from people that have never met me in the flesh.. ..
the hard facts are:  (the things theyve said that i now realize are true)
i take things too much to heart
i am swayed by people who are willin to show me affection
(yes You were right.. i follow the carrot dangled in front of me)
i give too much of my life away in words on the screen
i reveal my heart and thats like poison in the wrong hands
(the clones proved that)
no ones said anything about whats gone on recently so ill tell you
i got scared.. .. i got cold feet about makin a huge commitment and at the last minute after all the plans had been made and guests invited
i asked for a little more time
everythin had to be canceled.. .. and again ryan bore the brunt of my assinine behavior
(not the reason hes ill but it didnt help did it?)
She granted me the time but through tears.. .. hugged me and told me to go on
and do what i needed to and come back with a decision
by Christmas if possible
She sent me off to spend time alone and to think without Her or ryans influence over me..
but i took my computer
and im beginnin to think thats part of my problem.. .. or at least it exacerbates my problems
i trust too much.. .. ..
somehow i think if im just honest and open with people then things will be ok
and while im sittin here typin this im thinkin
michael.. .. .. after all the stuff you went through at the hands of bullies and druggies and fuckin assholes out to show just how real hatred and racism is.. ..
why do you believe in the ultimate good of people?
i have confided some things to people online
and when they were fed back to me months later 
theyd been embellished big time
like the time when i was thinkin of going to someone else..
the new line is that i was tied up in restraints 
and locked in the dungeon until i came to my senses
how did a weekend in solitary confinement IN MY ROOM to have time to think 
(which is what really happened) turn into holdin me hostage? 
that would be a criminal offense
and i know that neither MsV nor ryan would ever hold me against my will 
i dont know.. im ramblin
but to get back on track..
ive been in a b&b in cornwall 'havin a think' as they say.. ..
MsV called and said that ryan had collapsed and was in the hospital
so i drove back home overnight (got lost twice)
and last night and the night before 
i spent the night at the hospital with him.. ..
watchin him breathe with those tubes in his nose.. ..
thinkin how people have thought my love for him will only lead to heartbreak.. ..
i dont believe it.. ..
those people arent here
this isnt their life.. .. well meanin tho they might be..
i do love MsV.. .. .. i do care about Her a hell of alot
just because im not crosseyed and droolin over Her
doesnt make it a lesser love
stayin here was never about only loving ryan and not lovin Her
thats not the case neway ffs.. ..
weve been intimate.. .. She has given me what i need physically and mentally.. ..
Shes taken time to learn me and also to teach me..
She loves me.. wants whats best for me
and She expects alot of me
She wants me to be all that i can be..
She believes i have potential and promise.. ..
but.. .. ..
all that aside.. ..
when ryan gets well enough to go home ill be goin to miami to spend time with
my auntie and meet up with some of my college and high school friends
ill think about my life
ill think damn hard about it.. ..
and ill make a decision about whats best for me
i may go somewhere else and visit other people
after ive thought and deliberated
and uncovered everythin thats inside of me 
but here on this blog is where ill share my feelins
with people i dont see
who dont see me
not on AOL
not in chat
not in IMs
revealin myself in those places has just hurt me and hurt or frustrated others
i need to concentrate
i need to drum up the courage to delete my AOL account
and go on with my life
i dont want to hurt anyone or disappoint or annoy or aggravate people
i never wanted to do that
im gonna learn the fine art of timing.. and knowing when to keep my mouth shut
im gonna install a still small voice in my head that whispers
"they dont need to know about that michael"
isolation is not what got me into all this mess
talkin too much is what did
and listenin to everyone but my inner self.. ..
im sorry this doesnt make sense to most of the people who might read this
theres so much behind the scenes
but im the only one who knows it all
im the only one who has all the information
and stands in a position to make decisions about my future
and im the one who will live it
whether its good or bad

michael

its been another long night
but not for fun reasons
ryan got a real bad headache at about 1am 
im guessing it was a migraine
he thinks hes getting a cold
so i got him some medicine
lemsip - which if ya ask me is nasty as hell
and the beddie bear to sit on his face
we waited and waited and waited
but he was still hurting
i got him some more medicine
but when he sat up he got sick on me
so i had to hose off in the shower
yeah i used soap
but neway  grrrr ANYway.. .. ..
i got the bucket out from under the sink
in case he did it again
he laid back down and was cold and clammy
i said we should call Mistress
he said NO
so i obeyed him.. .. .. cause thats what i'm supposed to do
after we waited a while he took some other medicine
and i renuked the bear for him
i kinda sat behind him and touched his back
in that soft sorta caressing way he likes
and he fell asleep
problem is after that i couldnt sleep for about an hour
but finally at about 4:30 i dozed off curled up behind him
next thing you know just when im fully zonked
his damn alarm goes off at 5:30
i jumped outta my skin
he didnt move
i checked his pulse
cause if ya know ryan like i do
he is a slave to time and being punctual and tidy and blah blah blah
he mumbles "please let me lie here a bit longer"
<perk>
i think thats the first time hes ever asked ME for permission to do something
so he's back asleep now
its 6:30
my waking up time
i have a feeling im gonna want to sleep a little bit early tonight

smiles for all,
michael

i never thought that baby making would wear me out
i'm tired this morning
i know.. .. everyone says that the good part is that it doesn't usually take right away
so we have to keep pluggin away at it  (ha ha ha)
and like any other normal guy i'm cool with that.. ..
the thing is this temperature taking and kit to conceive
i can be hauled in at any moment
c'mon boy get it up and all that ffs
i need a little foreplay, Mistress
a little lack of tenderness
a nice hard paddling or some nasty attention to CF
cause that gets me in a stand up mood
but its la la la.. upsie daisy mikey
ok so i haven't failed yet
at least i can do what She wants
i'm having more trouble with my punctuation than my ejaculation
but time is of the essence
theres a "window of opportunity" 
and
"we musn't miss it" She says
well i'm game
but its not the same
i gotta go.

mikey

okay more oldies from MsV's collection.. ..

 
michael 
 

Ryans decided to go off and 'have a think' this weekend.
That means hes driven off into the sunset and won't be back until Sunday after dark sometime
he hasn't been his normal self and i guess im sorta worried about him.
MsV is too.
Its times like this i feel guilty for the trying nights.
He says hes cool with it but its gotta be hard
The way we live isnt the way that most people do
It kinda rubs the feathers of society the wrong way
One woman, nearly 40, in possession of two twenty something males.
Her word is law.
She makes the decisions and assigns the work. 
We ask permission for anything outside of our chores.
Most people don't live this way.
The three of us all want it this way, but sometimes whats dictated isn't easy to do.
Its gotta be this issue of having a baby that hes having trouble with.
I'm trying not to say too much.. .. ..
Even if Ryan doesn't want to father a baby it doesnt mean that its easy on him to let another man do the honors with the woman he loves.
He says to me and MsV that he accepts the decision and i think he does in a way
but
i think hes trying to convince himself as much as he is us.
how would i feel if i was him?
Does he feel like i'm trying to take his place?
Does he feel left out?
Does he think we're going on without him?
i don't know what to do.. .. but it's not up to me is it?
i love ryan more than like a brother
prolly most people that know me know that
i sure as hell didn't expect to in the beginning i can promise you that
we couldn't stand each other.. ..
and sure we both take the piss outta each other even now
but its just for fun and in a lovin sorta way
i love him
and im worried about him
all i can do is let him know that i love him, respect him and want to serve him secondary to MsV
which is what i'm supposed to do anyway
the difference is that i want to
its not my place to say what we do
thats for Mistress
but i can tell him how much i love him
how much he means to me
and how i can't imagine my life without him in it
thats so sappy.. ..
like a new friend said on his blog
if you would have told me i'd feel like this a while back i woulda laughed in your face
all i know is now
and i  hope that ryan is okay

michael

I stole this from MsAntLady.    Hope She doesn't mind.

TEN FIRSTS
First best friend: A boy named Dylan in kindergarten
First screen name: If i told ya that i'd have to kill ya
First Pet: a puppy my mom got me when i was two.  i named her baby. 
First Piercing:  both nipples pierced in 2002
First Crush: lol, a little blonde haired girl named samantha in my aunt's sunday school class
First Record: 'Fairweather Johnson' by Hootie and the Blowfish in 1996 (i was 12 when i bought it lol) 
First Love: Lisa - the first girl i ever fell in love with

NINE LASTS
Last alcoholic beverage: pint of stella at the pub
Last car ride: today in my vette
Last movie seen: orlando -  not a new film but something someone recommended a while back
Last phone call made: today to a client
Last CD Played: some silly mozart thing of ryan's
Last Bubble bath: ummm lol.. .. i put norfolk lavender bubble bath in the jacuzzi a week after i got here.  that was a MESS!  boy did i get in trouble!!!  
Last time you cried: lets see.. .. last week when i got a beatin from MsTamsin? 

EIGHT HAVE YOU EVERS
Have you ever dated one of your best friends: nope
Have you ever been arrested: hell no
Have you ever skinny dipped: yeah yeah in the miami surf, baby  
Have you ever been on TV: once in a commercial for a car stereo place
Have you ever kissed someone, and then regretted it: i've regretted kissin something- read a couple posts back- the one for the over 18s
Have you ever had a sex dream about someone: more than you would ever imagine
Have you ever had sex? well yeah, lol.

SEVEN THINGS YOU ARE WEARING
1. black thong underwear
2. ring in my PA piercing
3. track suit bottoms
4. tee shirt
5. pony tail holder (not pink!)
6. gold signet ring
7. training collar (more like a necklace) oh and my halo

SIX THINGS YOU'VE DONE TODAY
1. saw a client
2. had my piano lesson and kissed my teacher
3. ate breakfast and lunch (didn't get supper cause i'm punished)
4. fed horses
5. helped MsV with Her bath and getting dressed
6. did some work on the computer (work and play)

FIVE FAVOURITE THINGS IN NO ORDER
1. running
2. mexican food
3. a good whipping or cbt (easy on the b cause i wanna be a daddy)
4. oral sex
5. oh hell.. any sex with a woman ( ryan being the exception to the rule)

FOUR PEOPLE YOU CAN TELL ALMOST ANYTHING TO
1. Auntie
2. MsV
3. Ryan
4. My Guardian Angel (my mom)

THREE CHOICES
1. Black or White: black
2. Hot or Cold: hot
3. Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate

TWO THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. become a father
2. sail across the atlantic with ryan for my first mate (lol)

ONE THING YOU REGRET
looking at the free vids on www.herfirstgangbang.com in a moment of sexual frustration and having MsV find out about it.  i got a week of solitary for that.   

Okay i'm sorry i'm going on but just two more little digs.  

And thats about how little She is in stature compared to
Her human property, lol!

Okay i'm done
hope it was as good for the friends that know us
as it was for me!

mikey boy

well i wrote a post early this morning and had to delete it per instruction
while i was gettin a talkin to i was also told off for my lack of commas and apostrophes
and other stuff like that.  so.. .. .. ..

Now i have to write the 'proper' way.
i was told its time to grow up on paper (and computer screen).
ooookay
other rules?
i have to write out words all the way and not use my little abbreviations.
So that means no more 'ne' for any.
No more talkin or eatin or wankin ( Oops.. .. Did i say that?   )
If its supposed to be ing at the end i have to write or type ing.
i have to capitalize things.
The i's when referring to me can stay in lower case because this is okay with Her.
She says that shows that i know my place.
So i guess i'm gonna lose all my character.. .. at least my flavor of writinG.
i'm not an idiot
If i have to type a business letter or something official i know how to do it.
In my free time i have always liked to be a little more relaxed.
But MsV is determined to turn me from a casual American male
into a proper Anglo-American gentleman.
She says She's not tryinG to turn me into Ryan
but She wants to mold me into the best michael i can be.
Notice ANYthing above?
i have to capitilize Alfalfa's name because he's the boss of me too.
i'm the low man on the totem pole  (i am the totem pole when CF is a happy chappy - heh heh heh  )
i also decided to make a new design for my banner and my profile picture.
Does everyone like it?  i'm Snoopy and Ryan is Schroder the piano playing fool, lol.
Oh and don't forget to play the music under my title. 
You have to click on it TWICE for some stupid reason
It's the Penis  PeanutsTheme Song.
Okay the lyric for today from MsV's vast record collection is:

Love,
michael

well.. .. it looks like im gettin a headache to go with all the other aches
last night we had our little play party
but it wasnt really much fun for me at first
cause MsV did read my entry
and so i was gifted for an hour to MsTamsin
the only woman i know who could probably eclipse the sun
yeah.. yeah.. ill never learn
but neway.. .. ..
She wanted me to serve Her orally in a 'beneath the mountain' sort of way
i was lucky cause MsV tactfully didnt agree to that scenario
so back jabba lays on the chaise lounger thing - legs spread apart
theres a red thong buried in the rolls
but the only sign of it is a little thread across the mons and between the flaps of flesh coverin the naughty bits
MsV gives the hand signal for kneelin and i do that alright
She says 'closer' so i do that and when my face if about a foot from ground zero it hits me
how can i describe it?
mixture of sweat, fermented female musk, and spoiled fish about three weeks past its use by date
MsV says 'commence'
which ya can prolly figure out is about like a starter firing his gun
well i moved in just a tiny bit then hesitated cause i could feel myself gaggin
hesitation from a boy is not put up with by a Dominant.. .. .. no sireeee bob 
lets just say.. if ya hesitate - They dont.
MsV smacked me a good one upside my head.. .. hard enough to make my ears ring
She shouts now - 'COMMENCE!'
So i close my eyes and breathe thru my mouth and get closer
let me help you visualize this before i go ne further
in all honesty there is no sign of the target
its mounds of fatty flesh shaped vaguely like a horseshoe
you can see the line and you know that somewhere beneath that pooch is the happy button-hole
(sorry if thats too graphic-- hey.. ..just think how i felt!)
so i had no choice but to root my snout around in there like a pig tryin to find the spot
i feel the gorge risin up in my throat and try like hell to swallow it back
my tounge finds the button but i cant breath ffs
so i pull back for air
big big big mistake
breathin in deeply through both nostrils i get the full on 'scent of a woman'
i lean back and
BURP.. .. ..  really loud
lotsa self talk at this point..
c'mon michael.. swallow.. swallow.. swallow..
no no.. no c'mon.. let the burp be it and get on with the fuckin job
swallow..
ut oh.. oh god no
i managed to get out the words
'im gonna.. ..'
and then i puked all over the target area
all over her exposed flesh, the chaise lounge, and the floor
my only thought was
oh crap im gonna have to lick that up
but i got lucky and instead MsV and MsLiz grabbed me by the hair and pulled me away to the dungeon
i tell you no lie
i have little bald patchs from where they pulled it out
i was majorly mauled by the trio of them, but mainly by MsT after She cleaned Herself up
MsV and MsLiz had me all trussed up and ready by then
now MsT might weigh about 450 lbs(32 stone for you brits)
but that doesnt stop Her from throwin one hell of a mean punch
i got a couple major punches to the gut the first of which i wasnt expectin
then She tore into my ass
i cant sit down today with out usin a pillow and yelpin a bit
so yeah.. ok
im an admitted masochist
the beatin isnt a big deal
it only pissed em off that i was 'standin happy' in my loins when they were hittin me lol
they were talkin my language then
so alls well that ends well
ryan just got dressed up in stuff and played some of his music
we all learned that an erect penis can get stuck in the bell of a clarinet
bet Ya didnt know that huh?
learn something new everyday dont ya
neway.. .. ..
im not attemptin to orally serve anyone who i can smell a mile away
and dont any of you do it either.. .. .. lol

love,
mikey

lol well it seems like big brother has suddenly turned into the.. .. ..
::drum roll please::
guru to male submissives
now before ya say it or think it
im not jealous
hes got alot more experience than me
and hes been thru hell with those two idiots who were here before him
him and damon are my subbie gurus
mainly cause theyre onto something big
Ya know how some people get all caught up in religious fervor
they sorta have this glow that eminates from them like rays from the sun
no thats not it.. ..  you cant see it
you feel it though
when them two are together they are almost talkin on a different level to the rest of us lowly boys lol
course ryan worships damon
(damon is MsLizs numero uno sub in case you didnt know)
since the two guys that were here when ryan signed up were basically assholes
ryan chose damon as his role model
boy am i glad about that when i think about it
if hed made brian (who was his alpha when he came here) his role model i think i woulda lost any smidgen of submissiveness i had and we woulda been at each others throats lol
(translation:  i woulda killed him - lol)
but anyway.. .. ..
ryan is getting emails from lots of subminded guys
that damn blog has become like an advice column lol
hes livin up to the meanin of his name:  little king
hes gonna kill me for writin that i bet
cause hes not an attention seekin kinda guy
but he is a good role model for any guy that wants to be happy as a sub
his example is sometimes kinda hard to follow for an american lol
but hes patient and tries real hard to put up with me
thats gotta count for something doesnt it?
well todays gonna be a great day
cause.. .. ..
the sun is out
im gonna drive my car around
i have permission to barbecue ribs tonight
as my contribution to our 'network play evening'
woooooo hooooooo!
i just know this time to expect that big slappin session from MsTamsin
who if She was worth Her weight in gold
could reasonably carry the nickname
fort knox
oh man.. .. ..
nope im not gonna take that down
im gonna be punished probably but sheesh
i picked a cute way of sayin the truth  
i didnt just come out and say that She had a significant role in Star Wars with Carrie Fisher as Her love slave did i?
ooooook.. .. im gonna shut up now
i would like to live through my torture
hopefully no one will see this until tomorrow morning 
mmmwwwwaaahhhahahahaha! 

i just finished this book
its historical fiction that was recommended by damon to ryan and me
(btw damon is a big history buff)
its made me curious about WWI
i plan on readin up on the real thing
damon said hed loan me a few books from his library if i liked this one
its probably a little graphic for sensitive ladies tho 
You know who You are.. .. lol 
i think ill ask MsV if i can read up on WWI before diggin into the Churchill book
even tho this was a fictional story there are probably lots of real life stories like it
the untold stories i guess
MsV loves reading and has made sure that we do alot of it too
i think its good
ive never read so much in all my life
we dont take breaks
when one book is finished theres always another one waitin in the wings
we pick it up the next night usually
this one was one i read on my own.  i brought it with me on this trip for quiet times.
when i was sick as a f-ing dog i got about halfway through it lol
it took my mind off my stomach.
anyway.. .. .. its a good book if anyone wants to pick it up.
it even has a good ending

see ya
michael