its been another long night
but not for fun reasons
ryan got a real bad headache at about 1am 
im guessing it was a migraine
he thinks hes getting a cold
so i got him some medicine
lemsip - which if ya ask me is nasty as hell
and the beddie bear to sit on his face
we waited and waited and waited
but he was still hurting
i got him some more medicine
but when he sat up he got sick on me
so i had to hose off in the shower
yeah i used soap
but neway  grrrr ANYway.. .. ..
i got the bucket out from under the sink
in case he did it again
he laid back down and was cold and clammy
i said we should call Mistress
he said NO
so i obeyed him.. .. .. cause thats what i'm supposed to do
after we waited a while he took some other medicine
and i renuked the bear for him
i kinda sat behind him and touched his back
in that soft sorta caressing way he likes
and he fell asleep
problem is after that i couldnt sleep for about an hour
but finally at about 4:30 i dozed off curled up behind him
next thing you know just when im fully zonked
his damn alarm goes off at 5:30
i jumped outta my skin
he didnt move
i checked his pulse
cause if ya know ryan like i do
he is a slave to time and being punctual and tidy and blah blah blah
he mumbles "please let me lie here a bit longer"
<perk>
i think thats the first time hes ever asked ME for permission to do something
so he's back asleep now
its 6:30
my waking up time
i have a feeling im gonna want to sleep a little bit early tonight

smiles for all,
michael

i never thought that baby making would wear me out
i'm tired this morning
i know.. .. everyone says that the good part is that it doesn't usually take right away
so we have to keep pluggin away at it  (ha ha ha)
and like any other normal guy i'm cool with that.. ..
the thing is this temperature taking and kit to conceive
i can be hauled in at any moment
c'mon boy get it up and all that ffs
i need a little foreplay, Mistress
a little lack of tenderness
a nice hard paddling or some nasty attention to CF
cause that gets me in a stand up mood
but its la la la.. upsie daisy mikey
ok so i haven't failed yet
at least i can do what She wants
i'm having more trouble with my punctuation than my ejaculation
but time is of the essence
theres a "window of opportunity" 
and
"we musn't miss it" She says
well i'm game
but its not the same
i gotta go.

mikey

okay more oldies from MsV's collection.. ..

 
michael 
 

Ryans decided to go off and 'have a think' this weekend.
That means hes driven off into the sunset and won't be back until Sunday after dark sometime
he hasn't been his normal self and i guess im sorta worried about him.
MsV is too.
Its times like this i feel guilty for the trying nights.
He says hes cool with it but its gotta be hard
The way we live isnt the way that most people do
It kinda rubs the feathers of society the wrong way
One woman, nearly 40, in possession of two twenty something males.
Her word is law.
She makes the decisions and assigns the work. 
We ask permission for anything outside of our chores.
Most people don't live this way.
The three of us all want it this way, but sometimes whats dictated isn't easy to do.
Its gotta be this issue of having a baby that hes having trouble with.
I'm trying not to say too much.. .. ..
Even if Ryan doesn't want to father a baby it doesnt mean that its easy on him to let another man do the honors with the woman he loves.
He says to me and MsV that he accepts the decision and i think he does in a way
but
i think hes trying to convince himself as much as he is us.
how would i feel if i was him?
Does he feel like i'm trying to take his place?
Does he feel left out?
Does he think we're going on without him?
i don't know what to do.. .. but it's not up to me is it?
i love ryan more than like a brother
prolly most people that know me know that
i sure as hell didn't expect to in the beginning i can promise you that
we couldn't stand each other.. ..
and sure we both take the piss outta each other even now
but its just for fun and in a lovin sorta way
i love him
and im worried about him
all i can do is let him know that i love him, respect him and want to serve him secondary to MsV
which is what i'm supposed to do anyway
the difference is that i want to
its not my place to say what we do
thats for Mistress
but i can tell him how much i love him
how much he means to me
and how i can't imagine my life without him in it
thats so sappy.. ..
like a new friend said on his blog
if you would have told me i'd feel like this a while back i woulda laughed in your face
all i know is now
and i  hope that ryan is okay

michael

I stole this from MsAntLady.    Hope She doesn't mind.

TEN FIRSTS
First best friend: A boy named Dylan in kindergarten
First screen name: If i told ya that i'd have to kill ya
First Pet: a puppy my mom got me when i was two.  i named her baby. 
First Piercing:  both nipples pierced in 2002
First Crush: lol, a little blonde haired girl named samantha in my aunt's sunday school class
First Record: 'Fairweather Johnson' by Hootie and the Blowfish in 1996 (i was 12 when i bought it lol) 
First Love: Lisa - the first girl i ever fell in love with

NINE LASTS
Last alcoholic beverage: pint of stella at the pub
Last car ride: today in my vette
Last movie seen: orlando -  not a new film but something someone recommended a while back
Last phone call made: today to a client
Last CD Played: some silly mozart thing of ryan's
Last Bubble bath: ummm lol.. .. i put norfolk lavender bubble bath in the jacuzzi a week after i got here.  that was a MESS!  boy did i get in trouble!!!  
Last time you cried: lets see.. .. last week when i got a beatin from MsTamsin? 

EIGHT HAVE YOU EVERS
Have you ever dated one of your best friends: nope
Have you ever been arrested: hell no
Have you ever skinny dipped: yeah yeah in the miami surf, baby  
Have you ever been on TV: once in a commercial for a car stereo place
Have you ever kissed someone, and then regretted it: i've regretted kissin something- read a couple posts back- the one for the over 18s
Have you ever had a sex dream about someone: more than you would ever imagine
Have you ever had sex? well yeah, lol.

SEVEN THINGS YOU ARE WEARING
1. black thong underwear
2. ring in my PA piercing
3. track suit bottoms
4. tee shirt
5. pony tail holder (not pink!)
6. gold signet ring
7. training collar (more like a necklace) oh and my halo

SIX THINGS YOU'VE DONE TODAY
1. saw a client
2. had my piano lesson and kissed my teacher
3. ate breakfast and lunch (didn't get supper cause i'm punished)
4. fed horses
5. helped MsV with Her bath and getting dressed
6. did some work on the computer (work and play)

FIVE FAVOURITE THINGS IN NO ORDER
1. running
2. mexican food
3. a good whipping or cbt (easy on the b cause i wanna be a daddy)
4. oral sex
5. oh hell.. any sex with a woman ( ryan being the exception to the rule)

FOUR PEOPLE YOU CAN TELL ALMOST ANYTHING TO
1. Auntie
2. MsV
3. Ryan
4. My Guardian Angel (my mom)

THREE CHOICES
1. Black or White: black
2. Hot or Cold: hot
3. Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate

TWO THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. become a father
2. sail across the atlantic with ryan for my first mate (lol)

ONE THING YOU REGRET
looking at the free vids on www.herfirstgangbang.com in a moment of sexual frustration and having MsV find out about it.  i got a week of solitary for that.   

Okay i'm sorry i'm going on but just two more little digs.  

And thats about how little She is in stature compared to
Her human property, lol!

Okay i'm done
hope it was as good for the friends that know us
as it was for me!

mikey boy

well i wrote a post early this morning and had to delete it per instruction
while i was gettin a talkin to i was also told off for my lack of commas and apostrophes
and other stuff like that.  so.. .. .. ..

Now i have to write the 'proper' way.
i was told its time to grow up on paper (and computer screen).
ooookay
other rules?
i have to write out words all the way and not use my little abbreviations.
So that means no more 'ne' for any.
No more talkin or eatin or wankin ( Oops.. .. Did i say that?   )
If its supposed to be ing at the end i have to write or type ing.
i have to capitalize things.
The i's when referring to me can stay in lower case because this is okay with Her.
She says that shows that i know my place.
So i guess i'm gonna lose all my character.. .. at least my flavor of writinG.
i'm not an idiot
If i have to type a business letter or something official i know how to do it.
In my free time i have always liked to be a little more relaxed.
But MsV is determined to turn me from a casual American male
into a proper Anglo-American gentleman.
She says She's not tryinG to turn me into Ryan
but She wants to mold me into the best michael i can be.
Notice ANYthing above?
i have to capitilize Alfalfa's name because he's the boss of me too.
i'm the low man on the totem pole  (i am the totem pole when CF is a happy chappy - heh heh heh  )
i also decided to make a new design for my banner and my profile picture.
Does everyone like it?  i'm Snoopy and Ryan is Schroder the piano playing fool, lol.
Oh and don't forget to play the music under my title. 
You have to click on it TWICE for some stupid reason
It's the Penis  PeanutsTheme Song.
Okay the lyric for today from MsV's vast record collection is:

Love,
michael

well.. .. it looks like im gettin a headache to go with all the other aches
last night we had our little play party
but it wasnt really much fun for me at first
cause MsV did read my entry
and so i was gifted for an hour to MsTamsin
the only woman i know who could probably eclipse the sun
yeah.. yeah.. ill never learn
but neway.. .. ..
She wanted me to serve Her orally in a 'beneath the mountain' sort of way
i was lucky cause MsV tactfully didnt agree to that scenario
so back jabba lays on the chaise lounger thing - legs spread apart
theres a red thong buried in the rolls
but the only sign of it is a little thread across the mons and between the flaps of flesh coverin the naughty bits
MsV gives the hand signal for kneelin and i do that alright
She says 'closer' so i do that and when my face if about a foot from ground zero it hits me
how can i describe it?
mixture of sweat, fermented female musk, and spoiled fish about three weeks past its use by date
MsV says 'commence'
which ya can prolly figure out is about like a starter firing his gun
well i moved in just a tiny bit then hesitated cause i could feel myself gaggin
hesitation from a boy is not put up with by a Dominant.. .. .. no sireeee bob 
lets just say.. if ya hesitate - They dont.
MsV smacked me a good one upside my head.. .. hard enough to make my ears ring
She shouts now - 'COMMENCE!'
So i close my eyes and breathe thru my mouth and get closer
let me help you visualize this before i go ne further
in all honesty there is no sign of the target
its mounds of fatty flesh shaped vaguely like a horseshoe
you can see the line and you know that somewhere beneath that pooch is the happy button-hole
(sorry if thats too graphic-- hey.. ..just think how i felt!)
so i had no choice but to root my snout around in there like a pig tryin to find the spot
i feel the gorge risin up in my throat and try like hell to swallow it back
my tounge finds the button but i cant breath ffs
so i pull back for air
big big big mistake
breathin in deeply through both nostrils i get the full on 'scent of a woman'
i lean back and
BURP.. .. ..  really loud
lotsa self talk at this point..
c'mon michael.. swallow.. swallow.. swallow..
no no.. no c'mon.. let the burp be it and get on with the fuckin job
swallow..
ut oh.. oh god no
i managed to get out the words
'im gonna.. ..'
and then i puked all over the target area
all over her exposed flesh, the chaise lounge, and the floor
my only thought was
oh crap im gonna have to lick that up
but i got lucky and instead MsV and MsLiz grabbed me by the hair and pulled me away to the dungeon
i tell you no lie
i have little bald patchs from where they pulled it out
i was majorly mauled by the trio of them, but mainly by MsT after She cleaned Herself up
MsV and MsLiz had me all trussed up and ready by then
now MsT might weigh about 450 lbs(32 stone for you brits)
but that doesnt stop Her from throwin one hell of a mean punch
i got a couple major punches to the gut the first of which i wasnt expectin
then She tore into my ass
i cant sit down today with out usin a pillow and yelpin a bit
so yeah.. ok
im an admitted masochist
the beatin isnt a big deal
it only pissed em off that i was 'standin happy' in my loins when they were hittin me lol
they were talkin my language then
so alls well that ends well
ryan just got dressed up in stuff and played some of his music
we all learned that an erect penis can get stuck in the bell of a clarinet
bet Ya didnt know that huh?
learn something new everyday dont ya
neway.. .. ..
im not attemptin to orally serve anyone who i can smell a mile away
and dont any of you do it either.. .. .. lol

love,
mikey

lol well it seems like big brother has suddenly turned into the.. .. ..
::drum roll please::
guru to male submissives
now before ya say it or think it
im not jealous
hes got alot more experience than me
and hes been thru hell with those two idiots who were here before him
him and damon are my subbie gurus
mainly cause theyre onto something big
Ya know how some people get all caught up in religious fervor
they sorta have this glow that eminates from them like rays from the sun
no thats not it.. ..  you cant see it
you feel it though
when them two are together they are almost talkin on a different level to the rest of us lowly boys lol
course ryan worships damon
(damon is MsLizs numero uno sub in case you didnt know)
since the two guys that were here when ryan signed up were basically assholes
ryan chose damon as his role model
boy am i glad about that when i think about it
if hed made brian (who was his alpha when he came here) his role model i think i woulda lost any smidgen of submissiveness i had and we woulda been at each others throats lol
(translation:  i woulda killed him - lol)
but anyway.. .. ..
ryan is getting emails from lots of subminded guys
that damn blog has become like an advice column lol
hes livin up to the meanin of his name:  little king
hes gonna kill me for writin that i bet
cause hes not an attention seekin kinda guy
but he is a good role model for any guy that wants to be happy as a sub
his example is sometimes kinda hard to follow for an american lol
but hes patient and tries real hard to put up with me
thats gotta count for something doesnt it?
well todays gonna be a great day
cause.. .. ..
the sun is out
im gonna drive my car around
i have permission to barbecue ribs tonight
as my contribution to our 'network play evening'
woooooo hooooooo!
i just know this time to expect that big slappin session from MsTamsin
who if She was worth Her weight in gold
could reasonably carry the nickname
fort knox
oh man.. .. ..
nope im not gonna take that down
im gonna be punished probably but sheesh
i picked a cute way of sayin the truth  
i didnt just come out and say that She had a significant role in Star Wars with Carrie Fisher as Her love slave did i?
ooooook.. .. im gonna shut up now
i would like to live through my torture
hopefully no one will see this until tomorrow morning 
mmmwwwwaaahhhahahahaha! 

i just finished this book
its historical fiction that was recommended by damon to ryan and me
(btw damon is a big history buff)
its made me curious about WWI
i plan on readin up on the real thing
damon said hed loan me a few books from his library if i liked this one
its probably a little graphic for sensitive ladies tho 
You know who You are.. .. lol 
i think ill ask MsV if i can read up on WWI before diggin into the Churchill book
even tho this was a fictional story there are probably lots of real life stories like it
the untold stories i guess
MsV loves reading and has made sure that we do alot of it too
i think its good
ive never read so much in all my life
we dont take breaks
when one book is finished theres always another one waitin in the wings
we pick it up the next night usually
this one was one i read on my own.  i brought it with me on this trip for quiet times.
when i was sick as a f-ing dog i got about halfway through it lol
it took my mind off my stomach.
anyway.. .. .. its a good book if anyone wants to pick it up.
it even has a good ending

see ya
michael   

ive been up for a while
i had a nice run this morning on the treadmill and then had breakfast
its great that theres just about always food ready for us to eat
i havent been sick anymore - which is a damn good thing
when it happened i was worried that id spend the whole time feelin that way
ive just come online to write and after this ill check my mails
lol there wont be alot there
it wouldnt be a bad wager to bet theres nothing in my box
its a beautiful day
we are in sunny spain
another place ive never been
everywhere we have been has been real interestin
i think as an american who hasnt traveled much i find it pretty wild to be surrounded by non-english speakin people
it kinda puts me out of my comfort zone but not in a bad way
its been a good experience
sorta a chance to expand my awareness of the world and different cultures
im gonna start takin my language studies more seriously now
ryan got to show off some of his musical skills last night
theres like a little piano bar on here and ryan somehow got to play with the band for a few songs
hes something else.. .. and i felt proud of him when he was up there
when he got his little round of applause i felt sorta tight in the chest and happy for the attention he was gettin
i know i diss him alot about his music but he IS really good
real talented
i think he appreciates the stuff i can do too that hes not that great at
its the mutual admiration society lol
we had time to ourselves last night - MsV ryan and me - sorta settin out the fact that no matter where we are the positions we hold are immovable
She is still Mistress and we are still Her boys.. .. no matter what.
things are changin because the dynamic is evolving
good positive changes for all of us
everything was focused on me last night
i was the recipient of their affection and i shed some tears
i wont say more cause its not right to spill private things here
some stuff but not things that are really intimate
it would be classed as tmi for most people neway
its the difference between sex for the sake of sensation and sex because of love
its knowin that the people comin in contact with you in a physically intimate way have real heartfelt love for you
i can feel the difference and it overwhelms me sometimes
like it did last night
to lie between the two of them and feel surrounded by this sorta blanket of love just makes me cry
love.. .. acceptance.. .. being valued and treasured.. .. being needed and wanted.. ..
theres nothing better is there?
im a very lucky boy and i know it
im grateful and happy that life is good
im not going to waste it
whatever time ive got on this planet im going to spend with alot of 
joie de vivre 
see the french isnt wasted on me lol
the joy of life

love,
michael