ive been up for a while
i had a nice run this morning on the treadmill and then had breakfast
its great that theres just about always food ready for us to eat
i havent been sick anymore - which is a damn good thing
when it happened i was worried that id spend the whole time feelin that way
ive just come online to write and after this ill check my mails
lol there wont be alot there
it wouldnt be a bad wager to bet theres nothing in my box
its a beautiful day
we are in sunny spain
another place ive never been
everywhere we have been has been real interestin
i think as an american who hasnt traveled much i find it pretty wild to be surrounded by non-english speakin people
it kinda puts me out of my comfort zone but not in a bad way
its been a good experience
sorta a chance to expand my awareness of the world and different cultures
im gonna start takin my language studies more seriously now
ryan got to show off some of his musical skills last night
theres like a little piano bar on here and ryan somehow got to play with the band for a few songs
hes something else.. .. and i felt proud of him when he was up there
when he got his little round of applause i felt sorta tight in the chest and happy for the attention he was gettin
i know i diss him alot about his music but he IS really good
real talented
i think he appreciates the stuff i can do too that hes not that great at
its the mutual admiration society lol
we had time to ourselves last night - MsV ryan and me - sorta settin out the fact that no matter where we are the positions we hold are immovable
She is still Mistress and we are still Her boys.. .. no matter what.
things are changin because the dynamic is evolving
good positive changes for all of us
everything was focused on me last night
i was the recipient of their affection and i shed some tears
i wont say more cause its not right to spill private things here
some stuff but not things that are really intimate
it would be classed as tmi for most people neway
its the difference between sex for the sake of sensation and sex because of love
its knowin that the people comin in contact with you in a physically intimate way have real heartfelt love for you
i can feel the difference and it overwhelms me sometimes
like it did last night
to lie between the two of them and feel surrounded by this sorta blanket of love just makes me cry
love.. .. acceptance.. .. being valued and treasured.. .. being needed and wanted.. ..
theres nothing better is there?
im a very lucky boy and i know it
im grateful and happy that life is good
im not going to waste it
whatever time ive got on this planet im going to spend with alot of
joie de vivre
see the french isnt wasted on me lol
the joy of life
love,
michael