everyday is a day thats never been lived
so far today is a day with no mistakes in it
im not countin on it stayin that way
gotta be some mistakes in every day somewhere
neway.. .. ..
ive spent the last few nights up at the hospital with ryan
hes doing better
last night he felt good enough to play mastermind with me
even tho hes 'poorly' i didnt let him win all the games lol
hes tryin hard to be in good spirits
but i think neone that knows him knows hes havin a hard time
in his family theres so much emphasis put on not gettin your feathers ruffled
the stoic stuff cant be great for you in the long run can it?
i dont dare bring up the subject of music or his oboe
and im not gonna talk about that on here.. .. ..
its a concern is all im gonna say
somethin im sorta worried about
a friend of mine has been lookin at ryans astrological star chart thingie
(dont ask me cause i dont know nething about that sorta stuff)
and She says hes on his Saturn Return
i had to ask what that was so She explained it
its damn complicated all that stuff
but what i get of it is that ryans life is in for a lota change
and three plus years of hell
She says i cant help him
the most comfortable thing for me to say is
ohh i dont believe in this shit lol
but it seems like theres alot more to all this than readin the little bit in a newpaper or magazine
and guess when this return started?
She says about the time i arrived here
well damn.. .. .. that says it all
im BAD news!
oh i dont know.. ..
theyre sayin that ryan should be able to come home on medicines the end of the week
he didnt wanna be there from the start
after a day in the hospital we left him alone the first night
the nurses said it would be for the best and he needed rest
but that little bugger
he tried to self discharge at about 10 that night
they called the house and MsV and me went up there
ive been stayin the night with him ever since.
my new job:  watchdog
im tired but ok
i come home in the mornin from being with ryan all night
and then try to do some of his work and mine
fiona is workin her ass off
but hell if im tellin that to senor worry wart
life goes on ffs
ill write more soon when i get a chance

love
mikey