I spent a pretty good amount of time yesterday in spandex biking leggins bent in two weeding the front gardens.  This morning She rang me at 4 and told me to get my 'arse' outta bed and do the horses now cause She had some more 'ass in the air' gardening for me to do before I left for Cambridge.  And dont forget to wear the black spandex michael.. .. now jeez i know were a little pervy here (ok.. sorta alot) but for the love of Mike (I love that saying!) why? 
I didnt ask outright.. cause that woulda pissed Her off and She mighta decided I couldnt go to Ryans folks today.  I been thinking about him all night cause this is not a casual visit to his mom and dads.  Hes gone over for the weekend cause hes got to talk to em about something serious.
So anyway.. .. I just finished.  She even came outside and watched me up close.  Its distracting to have some female pawing on your backside while youre trying to get the weeding done but I managed.
CF didnt budge (or should i say bulge) an inch.  Good boy.  We dont need that kinda recreation.  Im just not up for it.. .. (pardon the lousy pun)
Im not gonna be online probably for the rest of the day.  Me and Ryan will come home after supper at his house.. so that might be about.. .. 9pm?  Im not sure.
Later Friends and Foes.. .. ..
 

Ive been working hard in the house today.  Its probably a good thing because its been cloudy and rainy just about all day.   The new profile pic is Ryan and me and its recent!  Were both kinda furry faced in it but its winter and I think having a face muffler is a good thing lol. 
Im braintired tonight.  Been crunching the numbers and taking a look at all the households expenditures.  Its amazing what you go through in a month around here.
Well I better get moving.   Man my eyes are itching and burning.  If ryan let that cat in here and Im having a reaction or something hes one dead guy.. ..
ME OWWWW 
Neway.. .. I just wanted to say hi and let everyone know were still alive!  
I'm tired.. but alive. 

i have a feelin this blog is probably gonna get a little borin for neone thats not one of my trusted blog friends.
ive written a private post to adie, MsE and MsAntlady and sort of let some pent up feelins out
a little explanation of why their kind words about the baby really touched me.. ..
but neway after gettin up and groomin the horses this mornin i took it upon myself to do the laundry and a couple bathrooms.. and hoover (vacuum) all the stairs after i fixed the little attachment that ryan said was broken
lol i am good for somethin and he seemed impressed sayin 'howd you do that?'
my secret
but really something was just stuck in the airflow part that turns the little belt that makes the brushes turn
dont ask me all the technical details coz im not a vacuum cleaner repairman
i wrote a couple emails and tonight me and ryan are gonna make some 'veggie burgers'
its a new recipe he got and from what i can tell the burgers are really potato, carrot, peas, spring onions and seasoning on a wholemeal bun.. .. .. not exactly the all american boys favorite but ill try it
i had a piano lesson today too
ryan pulled out the note flashcards and i did the best i could
i can promise you the cards took me so long to figure out - well some of em did - that there was no real flashin goin on.. ..
i dont think im musically talented.. i can play a little bit on guitar but mostly chords and a little bit from tabs..
i can sing ok i guess
so neway.. .. .. ryan says hed like to work toward a recital in may.. ..
now im thinkin
is he nuts?
i asked him 'what am i gonna play?  twinkle twinkle little star?'
he said no.. something by a classical composer but he hasnt picked out the piece yet
::shakin head::
i dunno
he keeps sayin 'you can do it michael'
im glad one of us has some faith in my piano efforts lol
i dont know whats on for tonight after we play around cookin in the kitchen.. ..
ryan picked out a cross stitch sampler for the baby.. .. hes already bought it, got it and is workin on it right now..
when its done it should look like this:

of course the babys name isnt gonna be alexander james.  MsV wants to name him Michael Ryan Harrison. 
i guess well just see when he gets here.. ..
we still have some of the baby booties that ryan and MsV did for Celestia.. none of em were blue tho so ryans gonna do that too he says
im in charge of the babys  room this time.
the colors are blue and white.. .. i know i know.. not very original..
and the theme is teddy bears.. which you probably guessed from the stitchin piece..
well its gonna be time to cook those veggie burgers soon
im a little bit hungry which is good
i got on the scale this morning just for the hell of it and ive lost 10 pounds since christmas time.
i just havent been as hungry i guess.. ..
ill write more when i get a chance

in the meantime heres another kinda cool pic of a baby boy.. .. ..

its been more than a week now since i found out i was gonna be a dad
i was at MsLizs when MsV  had the scan done
i know some of you might not understand this.. .. ..
last sept and part of october MsV and me were tryin to conceive
after losin celestia ryan was and is still pretty set on not havin nemore babies
i think he might change his mind one day
but losin his little girl was a real hard blow for him
i understand how he feels and i gotta respect that
neway.. ..
MsV decided Shed like to have a baby
and everyone knows that i wanna be a dad
so we were tryin
weve known for at least a month or so that She was pregnant but because we didnt know how far along she was
i thought ryan had at least some chance of bein the dad
but i was wrong about that
im not gonna get too personal cause i wanna respect peoples privacy
long story short.. .. the baby is a little boy.. who MsV keeps callin junior lol..
hes due on june 18th
im not gonna write about some of the other things that have happened
ryan already did that
the thing i am gonna say is
that my son is the most important person in the world to me
i want him to have a good life with me and his Mom and 'uncky ryan' lol
we are all excited.. .. ryan is worried as usual but hes happy neway
hes chasin MsV around with a handful of vitamins and glasses of 2% milk
we have an appt with the doctor this thursday which i think will just be a little checkup thing and maybe some advice
i dont have to tell You that things will change around here
just like they would have already changed if celestia had lived
just like ne other adults in a committed relationship theres gonna be adjustments
no more sex on the sofa
no more walkin around naked
bein discreet and keepin the sexual side of things very much to ourselves
there are lots of different kinds of families.. ..
there are families with two moms
families where the grandparents act as the parents
two dad families.. ..
single parent families..
foster parent families.. ..
and even little white boys being brought up by older black women who they arent related to at all.. .. .. in case some of you dont know.. .. im talkin about myself..
when my mom died i was five and she left me in the care of someone she had become very close to who just happened to be african american.  i grew up callin her auntie.  she did a good job of bringin me up too.  i owe her so much.
i guess my point is.. ..
despite what some people think
where theres love theres hope
where theres love theres a chance for lots of wonderful things to happen..
im lookin forward to the next scan so i can see him wrigglin around in there
ryan told me that its somethin ill never forget..
i bet hes right.
i just wanted to tell everyone officially.
oh.. .. and thanks adie for congratulatin me
it feels good to have other people be happy for us.