its been more than a week now since i found out i was gonna be a dad
i was at MsLizs when MsV  had the scan done
i know some of you might not understand this.. .. ..
last sept and part of october MsV and me were tryin to conceive
after losin celestia ryan was and is still pretty set on not havin nemore babies
i think he might change his mind one day
but losin his little girl was a real hard blow for him
i understand how he feels and i gotta respect that
neway.. ..
MsV decided Shed like to have a baby
and everyone knows that i wanna be a dad
so we were tryin
weve known for at least a month or so that She was pregnant but because we didnt know how far along she was
i thought ryan had at least some chance of bein the dad
but i was wrong about that
im not gonna get too personal cause i wanna respect peoples privacy
long story short.. .. the baby is a little boy.. who MsV keeps callin junior lol..
hes due on june 18th
im not gonna write about some of the other things that have happened
ryan already did that
the thing i am gonna say is
that my son is the most important person in the world to me
i want him to have a good life with me and his Mom and 'uncky ryan' lol
we are all excited.. .. ryan is worried as usual but hes happy neway
hes chasin MsV around with a handful of vitamins and glasses of 2% milk
we have an appt with the doctor this thursday which i think will just be a little checkup thing and maybe some advice
i dont have to tell You that things will change around here
just like they would have already changed if celestia had lived
just like ne other adults in a committed relationship theres gonna be adjustments
no more sex on the sofa
no more walkin around naked
bein discreet and keepin the sexual side of things very much to ourselves
there are lots of different kinds of families.. ..
there are families with two moms
families where the grandparents act as the parents
two dad families.. ..
single parent families..
foster parent families.. ..
and even little white boys being brought up by older black women who they arent related to at all.. .. .. in case some of you dont know.. .. im talkin about myself..
when my mom died i was five and she left me in the care of someone she had become very close to who just happened to be african american.  i grew up callin her auntie.  she did a good job of bringin me up too.  i owe her so much.
i guess my point is.. ..
despite what some people think
where theres love theres hope
where theres love theres a chance for lots of wonderful things to happen..
im lookin forward to the next scan so i can see him wrigglin around in there
ryan told me that its somethin ill never forget..
i bet hes right.
i just wanted to tell everyone officially.
oh.. .. and thanks adie for congratulatin me
it feels good to have other people be happy for us.