tag:michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk,2009-11-09:/A Daddy-to-be's outlook on life.. love.. pain.. laughter and all that other stuff that happens inbetween.MokoFeed2009-11-09T02:06:13+01:00tag:michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk,2008-01-27:/2008/01/27/some_people_just_like_to_see_your_ass_in~3638518/MichaelDavid2008-01-27T11:29:50+01:002008-01-27T11:29:50+01:00 <p>I spent a pretty good amount of time yesterday in spandex biking leggins bent in two weeding the front gardens.  This morning She rang me at 4 and told me to get my 'arse' outta bed and do the horses now cause She had some more 'ass in the air' gardening for me to do before I left for Cambridge.  And dont forget to wear the black spandex michael.. .. now jeez i know were a little pervy here (ok.. sorta alot) but for the love of Mike (I love that saying!) why?  <br>I didnt ask outright.. cause that woulda pissed Her off and She mighta decided I couldnt go to Ryans folks today.  I been thinking about him all night cause this is not a casual visit to his mom and dads.  Hes gone over for the weekend cause hes got to talk to em about something serious.<br>So anyway.. .. I just finished.  She even came outside and watched me up close.  Its distracting to have some female pawing on your backside while youre trying to get the weeding done but I managed.<br>CF didnt budge (or should i say bulge) an inch.  Good boy.  We dont need that kinda recreation.  Im just not up for it.. .. (pardon the lousy pun)<br>Im not gonna be online probably for the rest of the day.  Me and Ryan will come home after supper at his house.. so that might be about.. .. 9pm?  Im not sure.<br>Later Friends and Foes.. .. .. <img class="smiley" src="http://www.blog.co.uk/srv/tinymce/jss/plugins/blogdeemotions/smilies/icon_wave.gif" border="0" alt=""><br>  </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk/2008/01/27/some_people_just_like_to_see_your_ass_in~3638518/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk,2008-01-21:/2008/01/21/itchy_eyes_and_tired_brains~3611388/MichaelDavid2008-01-21T20:27:17+01:002008-01-21T20:27:17+01:00 <p>Ive been working hard in the house today.  Its probably a good thing because its been cloudy and rainy just about all day.   The new profile pic is Ryan and me and its recent!  Were both kinda furry faced in it but its winter and I think having a face muffler is a good thing lol.  <br>Im braintired tonight.  Been crunching the numbers and taking a look at all the households expenditures.  Its amazing what you go through in a month around here.<br>Well I better get moving.   Man my eyes are itching and burning.  If ryan let that cat in here and Im having a reaction or something hes one dead guy.. ..<br>ME OWWWW <br>Neway.. .. I just wanted to <em>say </em>hi and let everyone know were still alive!   <br>I'm tired.. but alive.<img class="smiley" src="http://www.blog.co.uk/srv/tinymce/jss/plugins/blogdeemotions/smilies/icon_yawn.gif" border="0" alt="">  </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk/2008/01/21/itchy_eyes_and_tired_brains~3611388/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk,2008-01-20:/2008/01/20/boys_flat_lunch~3604418/MichaelDavid2008-01-20T13:00:21+01:002008-01-20T13:05:24+01:00 <img src="http://i167.photobucket.com/albums/u134/rgray1981/lunch2.jpg" alt=""> <p>After finishing off some laundry at the house Ryan and I are spending a little bit of guy time in the flat. We decided since its windy and rainy outside wed make a nice chunky veggie soup. I was nearly voted down when it came to including the beef stew meat<br> but big brother conceded and theres just a little bit of beef<br> in amongst all those vegetables. On the left theres the salt and pepper..the mandatory wooden spoon and ryans cabbage. I think he would have put the whole head in if I hadnt said hey.. enough already.. i mean we dont want to smell up the place. Dont know if the Americans recognize the kettle behind the salt.<br> Thats ryans baby..<br> without tea.. hes lost.. lol<br> typical brit! </p> <img src="http://i167.photobucket.com/albums/u134/rgray1981/lunch1.jpg" alt=""> Its only been mixed in this picture and just put on the fire..<br> while im typing this its simmering down.  and it sure does smell good.<br> i like the baby corns in it.  those are my favorite veggies in this soup<br> well.. time for lunch in about 20 minutes so im off.. ..<br> just thought id share with my friends. <br> so get your cyber spoons out<br> and dig in!<br> <img class="smiley" src="http://www.blog.co.uk/srv/tinymce/jss/plugins/blogdeemotions/smilies/smiley-tongue-out.gif" border="0" alt=""> <p> <small> <a href="http://michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk/2008/01/20/boys_flat_lunch~3604418/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk,2008-01-19:/2008/01/19/saturday~3601513/MichaelDavid2008-01-19T18:24:51+01:002008-01-19T18:24:51+01:00 <p>i have a feelin this blog is probably gonna get a little borin for neone thats not one of my trusted blog friends.<br>ive written a private post to adie, MsE and MsAntlady and sort of let some pent up feelins out<br>a little explanation of why their kind words about the baby really touched me.. ..<br>but neway after gettin up and groomin the horses this mornin i took it upon myself to do the laundry and a couple bathrooms.. and hoover (vacuum) all the stairs after i fixed the little attachment that ryan said was broken<br>lol i am good for somethin and he seemed impressed sayin 'howd you do that?'<br>my secret<br>but really something was just stuck in the airflow part that turns the little belt that makes the brushes turn<br>dont ask me all the technical details coz im not a vacuum cleaner repairman <br>i wrote a couple emails and tonight me and ryan are gonna make some 'veggie burgers' <br>its a new recipe he got and from what i can tell the burgers are really potato, carrot, peas, spring onions and seasoning on a wholemeal bun.. .. .. not exactly the all american boys favorite but ill try it<br>i had a piano lesson today too<br>ryan pulled out the note flashcards and i did the best i could<br>i can promise you the cards took me so long to figure out - well some of em did - that there was no real flashin goin on.. ..<br>i dont think im musically talented.. i can play a little bit on guitar but mostly chords and a little bit from tabs..<br>i can sing ok i guess<br>so neway.. .. .. ryan says hed like to work toward a recital in may.. ..<br>now im thinkin<br>is he nuts?<br>i asked him 'what am i gonna play?  twinkle twinkle little star?'<br>he said no.. something by a classical composer but he hasnt picked out the piece yet<br>::shakin head::<br>i dunno<br>he keeps sayin 'you can do it michael'<br>im glad one of us has some faith in my piano efforts lol<br>i dont know whats on for tonight after we play around cookin in the kitchen.. ..<br>ryan picked out a cross stitch sampler for the baby.. .. hes already bought it, got it and is workin on it right now..<br>when its done it should look like this:</p> <img src="http://i167.photobucket.com/albums/u134/rgray1981/babysampler.jpg" alt=""> <p>of course the babys name isnt gonna be alexander james.  MsV wants to name him Michael Ryan Harrison.  <br>i guess well just see when he gets here.. ..<br>we still have some of the baby booties that ryan and MsV did for Celestia.. none of em were blue tho so ryans gonna do that too he says<br>im in charge of the babys  room this time.<br>the colors are blue and white.. .. i know i know.. not very original..<br>and the theme is teddy bears.. which you probably guessed from the stitchin piece..<br>well its gonna be time to cook those veggie burgers soon<br>im a little bit hungry which is good<br>i got on the scale this morning just for the hell of it and ive lost 10 pounds since christmas time.<br>i just havent been as hungry i guess.. ..<br>ill write more when i get a chance</p> <p>in the meantime heres another kinda cool pic of a baby boy.. .. ..</p> <img src="http://i167.photobucket.com/albums/u134/rgray1981/babyboy1.jpg" alt="" width="468" height="328"> <p> <small> <a href="http://michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk/2008/01/19/saturday~3601513/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk,2008-01-14:/2008/01/14/im_gonna_be_a_daddy~3576530/MichaelDavid2008-01-14T19:16:45+01:002008-01-14T19:16:45+01:00 <p>its been more than a week now since i found out i was gonna be a dad<br>i was at MsLizs when MsV  had the scan done <br>i know some of you might not understand this.. .. ..<br>last sept and part of october MsV and me were tryin to conceive<br>after losin celestia ryan was and is still pretty set on not havin nemore babies<br>i think he might change his mind one day <br>but losin his little girl was a real hard blow for him<br>i understand how he feels and i gotta respect that<br>neway.. ..<br>MsV decided Shed like to have a baby<br>and everyone knows that i wanna be a dad<br>so we were tryin<br>weve known for at least a month or so that She was pregnant but because we didnt know how far along she was<br>i thought ryan had at least some chance of bein the dad<br>but i was wrong about that<br>im not gonna get too personal cause i wanna respect peoples privacy<br>long story short.. .. the baby is a little boy.. who MsV keeps callin junior lol..<br>hes due on june 18th<br>im not gonna write about some of the other things that have happened<br>ryan already did that<br>the thing i am gonna say is<br>that my son is the most important person in the world to me<br>i want him to have a good life with me and his Mom and 'uncky ryan' lol<br>we are all excited.. .. ryan is worried as usual but hes happy neway<br>hes chasin MsV around with a handful of vitamins and glasses of 2% milk<br>we have an appt with the doctor this thursday which i think will just be a little checkup thing and maybe some advice<br>i dont have to tell You that things will change around here<br>just like they would have already changed if celestia had lived<br>just like ne other adults in a committed relationship theres gonna be adjustments<br>no more sex on the sofa<br>no more walkin around naked<br>bein discreet and keepin the sexual side of things very much to ourselves<br>there are lots of different kinds of families.. ..<br>there are families with two moms<br>families where the grandparents act as the parents<br>two dad families.. ..<br>single parent families.. <br>foster parent families.. ..<br>and even little white boys being brought up by older black women who they arent related to at all.. .. .. in case some of you dont know.. .. im talkin about myself..<br>when my mom died i was five and she left me in the care of someone she had become very close to who just happened to be african american.  i grew up callin her auntie.  she did a good job of bringin me up too.  i owe her so much. <br>i guess my point is.. ..<br>despite what some people think<br>where theres love theres hope<br>where theres love theres a chance for lots of wonderful things to happen..<br>im lookin forward to the next scan so i can see him wrigglin around in there<br>ryan told me that its somethin ill never forget..<br>i bet hes right.<br>i just wanted to tell everyone officially.<br>oh.. .. and thanks adie for congratulatin me<br>it feels good to have other people be happy for us. <img class="smiley" src="http://www.blog.co.uk/srv/tinymce/jss/plugins/blogdeemotions/smilies/05biggrin.gif" border="0" alt=""></p> <p>love<br>michael</p> <p>ps  im back to work but only on MsVs accounts.. i ended up passin all my outside clientele to colin and i think it would be wrong to horn my way back in.  were still lookin at me goin to university over here and ryan has started up my piano lessons again on tuesday afternoons or some other time durin the week when he can fit me in.  hes been teachin oboe and flute to some high school kids and he has a new student comin next week thats gonna put me in the dirt on piano.. that wouldnt be so bad but shes only 8 lol.  ok.. im gone xx</p> <p></p> <p> <small> <a href="http://michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk/2008/01/14/im_gonna_be_a_daddy~3576530/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk,2007-12-19:/2007/12/19/runnin_a_special_on_butlers_o~3467121/MichaelDavid2007-12-19T21:02:08+01:002007-12-19T21:02:08+01:00 <p>heres another tv butler.. and this one even has an english accent.. .. this is a old show before my time but its a good butler example..<br> hey did ne of you guys know what a butler does?<br> its called butling<br> sounds weird but its true <img src="/img/smilies/icon_smile.gif" alt=":)" class="middle" border="0"></p> <p> <small> <a href="http://michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk/2007/12/19/runnin_a_special_on_butlers_o~3467121/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk,2007-12-18:/2007/12/18/little_lurch_alias_ryan~3462498/MichaelDavid2007-12-18T22:09:30+01:002007-12-18T22:26:15+01:00 <p>for all you guys who dont know who Lurch is heres a little clip off youtube. its an episode thats real fittin for ryan with the piano stuff and the singin. heh heh heh. coupla things to look for when comparin ryan to lurch. first the musical skill.. .. second the way he reacts when the record guy wants to make him a star but the main thing is when the girls start goin crazy for him. watch the butler boys reaction. when he looks out the window thats ryan straight up! lol.. .. enjoy this. ive laughed until my sides hurt! <img src="/img/smilies/icon_biggrin.gif" alt=":D" class="middle" border="0"><br> <p> <small> <a href="http://michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk/2007/12/18/little_lurch_alias_ryan~3462498/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk,2007-12-09:/2007/12/09/today~3416797/MichaelDavid2007-12-09T11:25:46+01:002007-12-09T12:22:17+01:00 <p>i guess i shouldnt have gone nuts on here<br>theres alot worse things than finding out you do have a dad<br>or a father.. .. or whatever he is<br>so far nothing to me<br>but who knows<br>i posted what i was feelin and i should have waited until i had calmed down<br>im ok for now<br>im healin up from my party for one<br>ryans still worried about me<br>but that doesnt stop him from playin tricks on me<br>i found out about dettol yesterday morning<br>here michael im just gonna put a little soap and water on your back<br>like ive been doin ever since you hurt yourself<br>and then sizzle<br>now i can hack it<br>all i did was shudder a little cause it surprised me<br>but boy oh boy did he make a big deal of that<br>you flinched!  he says to me<br>well duh<br>i was expectin water<br>water and dettol are NOT the same thing<br>so he keeps needlin me for fun and flashin that dumb fool grin of his<br>all i said to him was just you wait<br>and im not sorry for callin you lurch buddy<br>game back on<br>all bets off.. .. ..<br>with that beard and all im gonna change your name to eddie munster<br>go figure that out butler boy<br>lol<br>im feelin a wrestlin match comin on<br>and im feelin like a winner too<br>anyways.. .. ..<br>im not gonna do nething about the father thing<br>im not that damn curious<br>and i dont need it.. like adie said in his comment.. (oh and thanks adie!) some things are better left alone.<br>ive got a life to live and a heart to figure out<br>who needs more complications<br>oh and the new pic is me Adie<br>thats from the cruise we went on a few months back<br>ryan posted his so i thought id do mine<br>just to show im better lookin lol<br>oh god.. im a quillin failure<br>i suck at doing crafty crap<br>but MsV never gives up lol<br>She pulls out this big box of all colored paper strips and some little tool thing that looks like a hypodermic needle with a wooden handle and this board of circles and says im gonna make some cards<br>oh man.. .. ..<br>first i cant get the paper around the needle thingie<br>then after i do my circles are more like ovals with bends<br>i was at this for three hours<br>and i dont think im ne better at it than i was<br>why am i doin this?<br>cause She says to<br>i think puttin a kink in my tail gives Her a charge<br>mmm hmm<br>i cooked some food the other night <br>brit food - and it turned out decent <img class="smiley" src="http://www.blog.co.uk/srv/tinymce/jss/plugins/blogdeemotions/smilies/06razz.gif" border="0" alt="" width="15" height="15"><br>MsV said it was good<br>ryan didnt have my main meal cause hes a vegetable<br>i made steak and kidney pie<br>i love steak.. .. and kidney is ok i guess.. .. tastes like turkey giblets<br>i wouldnt eat it on its own.. .. blech!<br>im gonna go<br>sorry i was such a pissy pants last time<br>im ok<br>im over the shock.. ..  <br>i guess the people makin decisions had their reasons<br>im gonna leave it at that.</p> <p>mm mm mm michael<br>(thats for you princess chauncey)<br><img src="http://i167.photobucket.com/albums/u134/rgray1981/princesschauncey.jpg" alt="" width="112" height="166"> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk/2007/12/09/today~3416797/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk,2007-12-05:/2007/12/05/i_wish_i_didnt_know~3400996/MichaelDavid2007-12-05T21:29:56+01:002007-12-05T21:29:56+01:00 <p>im not gonna go too into it<br>sayin it upsets me is a fuckin understatement.. .. ..<br>i got told a few nights ago<br>that my mom DID know who my dad was<br>but never told me<br>and told auntie not to tell me until i was in my mid twenties<br>i know now.. ..<br>auntie told me his name and some other details..<br>but i wish like fuck she hadnt<br>i feel numb<br>i feel angry<br>i feel like breakin things and breakin myself<br>i feel cheated<br>and then i dont feel anything all over again.. .. ..<br>get this.. .. ..<br>the guy knows NOTHING about me<br>he doesnt even know i exist<br>he never knew he got my mom pregnant..<br>she never told him!!!<br>somehow the fuckers family life was more important to everyone than my need for a dad<br>see.. .. .. as the bitch of a story goes.. ..<br>the guy that won the lucky sperm lottery was a married guy<br>so im not happy with all this bullshit<br>for the first time in my life im REAL PISSED OFF at my mom<br>i mean.. .. .. WHAT THE FUCK?<br>what about the little boy that needed a father huh????<br>what about the kid who noticed that everyone else seemed to have a dad at the games to cheer em on?<br>what about the little boy who needed a good male role model huh????<br>what about <u>ME</u> for fuck sake?<br>i wish like hell i could go back and not know a damn thing<br>it was a hell of alot easier when he was nameless and no one<br>i wanna turn back the clock and not be told nething<br>ive done what i can to let out my feelins<br>but of course that shocks the shit outta ryan<br>he doesnt get the need to bleed<br>he doesnt understand that pain is therapeutic<br>hes in the dark and thinks im going mental<br>a god damn lunatic.. .. thats what he thinks i am now..<br>so what do i do?<br>jackshit.. .. .. thats what<br>i dont wanna know him<br>i dont care if hes dead or alive or fuckin stray animals on a dare<br>ryan says its not his fault cause he didnt know<br>i dont fuckin care<br>im mad at my mom<br>my mom whos been dead for nearly 19 years<br>but ffs mom.. .. that little five year old boy you left behind sure as fuck coulda used a daddy<br>didnt you even think about that for five god damn seconds?<br>what in hell was the point in tellin me now when im a grown man?<br>thats like throwin a life preserver in 2007 to one of the people lost on the Titanic<br>ive gotten by thanks to auntie.. .. and im not sayin i dont love her and appreciate her<br>she did the best she could with me.. .. all by herself<br>but why in hell didnt anyone care enough?<br>did they think the bastard wouldnt have anythin to do with me?<br>hell if i know.. ..<br>a friend of mine told me to sit on this a while and give it a chance to settle in<br>actin on anything right now could be a bad move<br>found out that ryan and MsV even knew <br>when auntie was livin here she told em.. .. ..<br>aint that a crock of feces?<br>instead of the wife.. .. i guess its the son thats always the last to know<br>im so fuckin screwed in the head.. .. ..<br>i need a hug but im too angry to let anyone near me<br>ryan is driving me apeshit by worryin and lookin concerned<br>hes just hangin around and hoverin over me like he did MsV when She was preggers<br>somebody help me..<br>i feel like im drowning<br>nevermind.. dont.. <br>im better off dead </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk/2007/12/05/i_wish_i_didnt_know~3400996/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk,2007-11-09:/2007/11/09/lmao_too_funny~3271549/MichaelDavid2007-11-09T18:59:48+01:002007-11-09T18:59:48+01:00 <p><img src="http://i167.photobucket.com/albums/u134/rgray1981/charliebrownfunny.gif" alt="" width="482" height="292"> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk/2007/11/09/lmao_too_funny~3271549/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk,2007-11-04:/2007/11/04/another_night_of_explosions~3245699/MichaelDavid2007-11-04T20:50:37+01:002007-11-04T20:50:37+01:00 <p>ryan came home on thursday and weve been forcin him to take it easy<br>today his parents were here for sunday roast dinner<br>well it was mostly ok.. ..<br>ryans mother was pretty docile compared to her normal excitable chatterbox behavior<br>i guess lurch musta talked to her <br>and convinced her that she was makin little lurch vewee nurvus<br>poor ryan<br>he says to her at our luncheon<br>mother i dont want any ch.. ch.. chi.. chi..<br>i couldnt help myself<br>i just said it<br>chicken<br>he means chicken<br>MsV and MrsLurch shot me a nasty look<br>and i gave them my truest puppy dog eyes that said<br>im only tryin to help<br>ryan doesnt seem to care if i help him finish his words sometimes<br>when his mom isnt around he hardly ever stammers.. ..<br>but they were here from noon until about an hour ago<br>so ryan was stumblin over all his hard c and k sounds and his ch sounds most of the day<br>i felt sorry for him.. .. even if he hates it when i do..<br>me and ryan are in the great room again but we dont have the telly on<br>hes readin to himself and lookin sleepy.. .. <br>we arent lettin him do nething around here<br>MsV let him have his stitching and his books and that crocheted afgan his mom made when he was a kid<br>hes got his beddy bear if he gets cold<br>(yeah i put it in the microwave for a minute forty-five and its nice and toasty)<br>i have one too.. .. his is blue.. .. mine is brown like a real bear..<br>i only use mine if i have a cold or a muscle cramp<br>the great room has this huge sectional and weve been campin out here some nights<br>just since hes been home.<br>its nice cause of the fireplace<br>even tho lately it hasnt felt cold enough for a big fire<br>theres still fireworks like crazy but not as many as last night<br>i cooked me and MsV some bangers n mash tonight<br>i put the cooked potatoes in fionas food processor<br>and it sorta turned em to pureed potato lol.. .. reallly creamy<br>but She said it was good.. .. rah cheer!<br>and adie.. .. me and ryan are still sendin good thoughts for andrews mom</p> <p>lots good stuff<br>michael <img class="smiley" src="http://www.blog.co.uk/srv/tinymce/jss/plugins/blogdeemotions/smilies/smiley-wink2.gif" border="0" alt="" width="18" height="18"><br> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk/2007/11/04/another_night_of_explosions~3245699/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk,2007-10-31:/2007/10/31/oh_damn_happy_halloween~3222581/MichaelDavid2007-10-31T08:53:17+01:002007-10-31T08:53:17+01:00 <img src="http://i167.photobucket.com/albums/u134/rgray1981/skeleton.gif" alt="" width="350" height="171"> <p> <small> <a href="http://michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk/2007/10/31/oh_damn_happy_halloween~3222581/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk,2007-10-31:/2007/10/31/not_alota_time~3222559/MichaelDavid2007-10-31T08:44:23+01:002007-10-31T08:44:23+01:00 <p>i dont have alota time today so this is gonna be short<br>i didnt stay the night with ryan last night and MsV isnt home yet<br>so i dont know if theres anythin new to report<br>i guess ill go with the old 'no news is good news' theory<br>its about 7:30am and i made myself a tuna and sweetcorn sandwich for breakfast<br>i know.. .. sounds disgustin<br>but i dont really have to eat breakfast food at breakfast<br>im not the sorta person who has to be eased into eatin<br>im ready for anythin most of the time<br>im a nut for cold pizza the mornin after<br>and i dont think im the only one<br>(he says grabbin a handful of hula hoops and stuffin em in his face)<br>lol<br>i have some assigned work to do today and then im gonna be up at the hospy seein my bro whos damn cute when hes sleepin  ::awe::  cant wait to see him<br>yesterday fiona tried to show me how her and ryan do the orderin of supplies for the houshold<br>damn its intricate<br>doin an organized shoppin thing isnt one of my strong points neway<br>i think she lost patience with me bein 'thickheaded' about it lol<br>she says 'you certainly arent ryan'<br>well<br>doh!<br>and hes not me<br>were a matchin set that compliment each other<br>im the ying for his yang<br>the butter on his toast<br>the wheels on his car<br>and the tights for his tutu (lol -- maybe not)<br>::looks at tuna sandwich and wonders whats REALLY in it::<br>im one wild and crazy guy <img class="smiley" src="http://www.blog.co.uk/srv/tinymce/jss/plugins/blogdeemotions/smilies/smiley-cool2.gif" border="0" alt="" width="18" height="18">  (that steve martin guy was really funny)<br>talk to yall later</p> <p>mikey boy <br>(and the ever present but currently at rest - captain fantastic)</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk/2007/10/31/not_alota_time~3222559/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk,2007-10-30:/2007/10/30/today_for_the_first_time~3217164/MichaelDavid2007-10-30T08:44:43+01:002007-10-30T08:47:14+01:00 <p>everyday is a day thats never been lived<br>so far today is a day with no mistakes in it<br>im not countin on it stayin that way<br>gotta be some mistakes in every day somewhere<br>neway.. .. ..<br>ive spent the last few nights up at the hospital with ryan<br>hes doing better<br>last night he felt good enough to play mastermind with me<br>even tho hes 'poorly' i didnt let him win all the games lol<br>hes tryin hard to be in good spirits<br>but i think neone that knows him knows hes havin a hard time<br>in his family theres so much emphasis put on not gettin your feathers ruffled<br>the stoic stuff cant be great for you in the long run can it?<br>i dont dare bring up the subject of music or his oboe<br>and im not gonna talk about that on here.. .. ..<br>its a concern is all im gonna say<br>somethin im sorta worried about<br>a friend of mine has been lookin at ryans astrological star chart thingie<br>(dont ask me cause i dont know nething about that sorta stuff)<br>and She says hes on his Saturn Return<br>i had to ask what that was so She explained it<br>its damn complicated all that stuff <br>but what i get of it is that ryans life is in for a lota change<br>and three plus years of hell<br>She says i cant help him<br>the most comfortable thing for me to say is <br>ohh i dont believe in this shit lol<br>but it seems like theres alot more to all this than readin the little bit in a newpaper or magazine<br>and guess when this return started?<br>She says about the time i arrived here<br>well damn.. .. .. that says it all<br>im BAD news! <img class="smiley" src="http://www.blog.co.uk/srv/tinymce/jss/plugins/blogdeemotions/smilies/13confused.gif" border="0" alt="" width="15" height="15"><br>oh i dont know.. ..<br>theyre sayin that ryan should be able to come home on medicines the end of the week<br>he didnt wanna be there from the start<br>after a day in the hospital we left him alone the first night<br>the nurses said it would be for the best and he needed rest<br>but that little bugger<br>he tried to self discharge at about 10 that night<br>they called the house and MsV and me went up there<br>ive been stayin the night with him ever since.<br>my new job:  watchdog<br>im tired but ok<br>i come home in the mornin from being with ryan all night <br>and then try to do some of his work and mine<br>fiona is workin her ass off<br>but hell if im tellin that to senor worry wart<br>life goes on ffs<br>ill write more soon when i get a chance <img class="smiley" src="http://www.blog.co.uk/srv/tinymce/jss/plugins/blogdeemotions/smilies/08wink.gif" border="0" alt="" width="15" height="15"></p> <p>love<br>mikey </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk/2007/10/30/today_for_the_first_time~3217164/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk,2007-10-28:/2007/10/28/its_time_to_be_serious~3206586/MichaelDavid2007-10-28T10:30:12+01:002007-10-30T08:19:27+01:00 <p>i havent posted here in a long time.. .. ..<br>most of my posts in the past have been sorta jovial and good for a laugh<br>but i have a serious side too<br>and youre gonna meet that side today..<br>in the past few weeks ive learned some things<br>things that people have tried to point out but i guess i didnt see<br>ive been told lots of things about myself<br>some of em i agree with<br>others i dont<br>but all these things ive been told<br>are from people that have never met me in the flesh.. ..<br>the hard facts are:  (the things theyve said that i now realize are true)<br>i take things too much to heart<br>i am swayed by people who are willin to show me affection <br>(yes You were right.. i follow the carrot dangled in front of me)<br>i give too much of my life away in words on the screen<br>i reveal my heart and thats like poison in the wrong hands<br>(the clones proved that)<br>no ones said anything about whats gone on recently so ill tell you<br>i got scared.. .. i got cold feet about makin a huge commitment and at the last minute after all the plans had been made and guests invited<br>i asked for a little more time<br>everythin had to be canceled.. .. and again ryan bore the brunt of my assinine behavior<br>(not the reason hes ill but it didnt help did it?)<br>She granted me the time but through tears.. .. hugged me and told me to go on<br>and do what i needed to and come back with a decision <br>by Christmas if possible<br>She sent me off to spend time alone and to think without Her or ryans influence over me..<br>but i took my computer<br>and im beginnin to think thats part of my problem.. .. or at least it exacerbates my problems<br>i trust too much.. .. ..<br>somehow i think if im just honest and open with people then things will be ok<br>and while im sittin here typin this im thinkin<br>michael.. .. .. after all the stuff you went through at the hands of bullies and druggies and fuckin assholes out to show just how real hatred and racism is.. ..<br>why do you believe in the ultimate good of people?<br>i have confided some things to people online <br>and when they were fed back to me months later <br>theyd been embellished big time<br>like the time when i was thinkin of going to someone else.. <br>the new line is that i was tied up in restraints <br>and locked in the dungeon until i came to my senses<br>how did a weekend in solitary confinement IN MY ROOM to have time to think <br>(which is what really happened) turn into holdin me hostage?  <br>that would be a criminal offense<br>and i know that neither MsV nor ryan would ever hold me against my will <br>i dont know.. im ramblin<br>but to get back on track..<br>ive been in a b&b in cornwall 'havin a think' as they say.. .. <br>MsV called and said that ryan had collapsed and was in the hospital<br>so i drove back home overnight (got lost twice)<br>and last night and the night before <br>i spent the night at the hospital with him.. .. <br>watchin him breathe with those tubes in his nose.. .. <br>thinkin how people have thought my love for him will only lead to heartbreak.. .. <br>i dont believe it.. ..<br>those people arent here<br>this isnt their life.. .. well meanin tho they might be..<br>i do love MsV.. .. .. i do care about Her a hell of alot<br>just because im not crosseyed and droolin over Her <br>doesnt make it a lesser love<br>stayin here was never about only loving ryan and not lovin Her<br>thats not the case neway ffs.. ..<br>weve been intimate.. .. She has given me what i need physically and mentally.. ..<br>Shes taken time to learn me and also to teach me..<br>She loves me.. wants whats best for me<br>and She expects alot of me<br>She wants me to be all that i can be.. <br>She believes i have potential and promise.. ..<br>but.. .. ..<br>all that aside.. ..<br>when ryan gets well enough to go home ill be goin to miami to spend time with <br>my auntie and meet up with some of my college and high school friends<br>ill think about my life<br>ill think damn hard about it.. ..<br>and ill make a decision about whats best for me<br>i may go somewhere else and visit other people<br><u>after</u> ive thought and deliberated <br>and uncovered everythin thats inside of me <br>but here on this blog is where ill share my feelins <br>with people i dont see<br>who dont see me<br>not on AOL<br>not in chat<br>not in IMs<br>revealin myself in those places has just hurt me and hurt or frustrated others<br>i need to concentrate<br>i need to drum up the courage to delete my AOL account<br>and go on with my life<br>i dont want to hurt anyone or disappoint or annoy or aggravate people<br>i never wanted to do that<br>im gonna learn the fine art of timing.. and knowing when to keep my mouth shut<br>im gonna install a still small voice in my head that whispers<br>"they dont need to know about that michael"<br>isolation is not what got me into all this mess<br>talkin too much is what did<br>and listenin to everyone but my inner self.. ..<br>im sorry this doesnt make sense to most of the people who might read this<br>theres so much behind the scenes<br>but im the only one who knows it all<br>im the only one who has all the information <br>and stands in a position to make decisions about my future<br>and im the one who will live it<br>whether its good or bad</p> <p>michael<br> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk/2007/10/28/its_time_to_be_serious~3206586/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk,2007-09-27:/2007/09/27/another_long_night~3046269/MichaelDavid2007-09-27T06:32:33+02:002007-09-27T06:34:07+02:00 <p>its been another long night <br>but not for fun reasons<br>ryan got a real bad headache at about 1am <br>im guessing it was a migraine<br>he thinks hes getting a cold<br>so i got him some medicine<br>lemsip - which if ya ask me is nasty as hell<br>and the beddie bear to sit on his face<br>we waited and waited and waited<br>but he was still hurting<br>i got him some more medicine<br>but when he sat up he got sick on me<br>so i had to hose off in the shower<br>yeah i used soap<br>but neway  grrrr ANYway.. .. .. <br>i got the bucket out from under the sink<br>in case he did it again<br>he laid back down and was cold and clammy<br>i said we should call Mistress<br>he said NO<br>so i obeyed him.. .. .. cause thats what i'm supposed to do<br>after we waited a while he took some other medicine<br>and i renuked the bear for him<br>i kinda sat behind him and touched his back <br>in that soft sorta caressing way he likes<br>and he fell asleep<br>problem is after that i couldnt sleep for about an hour<br>but finally at about 4:30 i dozed off curled up behind him<br>next thing you know just when im fully zonked<br>his damn alarm goes off at 5:30<br>i jumped outta my skin<br>he didnt move<br>i checked his pulse<br>cause if ya know ryan like i do<br>he is a slave to time and being punctual and tidy and blah blah blah<br>he mumbles "please let me lie here a bit longer"<br><perk><br>i think thats the first time hes ever asked ME for permission to do something<br>so he's back asleep now<br>its 6:30<br>my waking up time<br>i have a feeling im gonna want to sleep a little bit early tonight</p> <p>smiles for all,<br>michael <img src="/img/smilies/icon_smile.gif" alt=":)" class="middle" border="0"><br> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk/2007/09/27/another_long_night~3046269/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk,2007-09-26:/2007/09/26/its_been_a_long_night~3040870/MichaelDavid2007-09-26T07:40:56+02:002007-09-26T07:40:56+02:00 <p>i never thought that baby making would wear me out<br>i'm tired this morning<br>i know.. .. everyone says that the good part is that it doesn't usually take right away<br>so we have to keep pluggin away at it  (ha ha ha)<br>and like any other normal guy i'm cool with that.. ..<br>the thing is this temperature taking and kit to conceive<br>i can be hauled in at any moment<br>c'mon boy get it up and all that ffs<br>i need a little foreplay, Mistress<br>a little <u>lack</u> of tenderness<br>a nice hard paddling or some nasty attention to CF<br>cause that gets me in a stand up mood<br>but its la la la.. upsie daisy mikey<br>ok so i haven't failed yet<br>at least i can do what She wants<br>i'm having more trouble with my punctuation than my ejaculation<br>but time is of the essence<br>theres a "window of opportunity" <br>and<br>"we musn't miss it" She says<br>well i'm game<br>but its not the same<br>i gotta go.</p> <p>hugs smiles and all the good stuff!</p> <p>mikey <img class="smiley" src="http://www.blog.co.uk/srv/tinymce/jss/plugins/blogdeemotions/smilies/smiley-tongue-out.gif" border="0" alt="" width="18" height="18"> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk/2007/09/26/its_been_a_long_night~3040870/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk,2007-09-22:/2007/09/22/more_easy_lyrics_to_guess~3023413/MichaelDavid2007-09-22T19:03:14+02:002007-09-22T19:03:55+02:00 <p>okay more oldies from MsV's collection.. ..</p> <p>1.<br>"... paint your palet blue and grey<br>look out on a summer's day<br>with eyes that know the darkness in my soul<br>shadows on the hills<br>sketch the trees and  the daffodils<br>catch the breeze and the winter chills<br>in colors on the snowy linen land..."</p> <p>2.<br>"...i'm not the kind of man<br>who tends to socialize<br>i seem to lean on old familiar ways<br>and i ain't no fool for love songs <br>that whisper in my ears..."</p> <p>3.<br>"...when i think back on all the crap<br>i learned in high school<br>its a wonder i can think at all<br>and though my lack of education <br>hasn't hurt me none<br>i can read the writing on the wall..."</p> <p>4.<br>"...13 month old baby,<br>broken looking glass,<br>7 years of bad luck,<br>the good things in your past...'</p> <p>5.<br>"...i used to be a rolling stone, ya know<br>if the cause was right<br>i'd leave to find an answer on the road<br>i used to be a hard beatin for someone<br>but the times have changed<br>the less i say the more my work gets done</p> <p> <br>first one to get all five right can tie me up and beat me till i'm unconcious..<br>oh wait.. .. <br>that would be a prize for ME!</p> <p> <br>michael  <img class="smiley" src="http://www.blog.co.uk/srv/tinymce/jss/plugins/blogdeemotions/smilies/grayyes.gif" border="0" alt="" width="15" height="15"><br> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk/2007/09/22/more_easy_lyrics_to_guess~3023413/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk,2007-09-22:/2007/09/22/title~3021867/MichaelDavid2007-09-22T12:23:55+02:002007-09-22T12:28:56+02:00 <p>Ryans decided to go off and 'have a think' this weekend.<br>That means hes driven off into the sunset and won't be back until Sunday after dark sometime<br>he hasn't been his normal self and i guess im sorta worried about him.<br>MsV is too.<br>Its times like this i feel guilty for the trying nights.<br>He says hes cool with it but its gotta be hard<br>The way we live isnt the way that most people do<br>It kinda rubs the feathers of society the wrong way<br>One woman, nearly 40, in possession of two twenty something males.<br>Her word is law.<br>She makes the decisions and assigns the work.  <br>We ask permission for anything outside of our chores.<br>Most people don't live this way.<br>The three of us all want it this way, but sometimes whats dictated isn't easy to do.<br>Its gotta be this issue of having a baby that hes having trouble with.<br>I'm trying not to say too much.. .. ..<br>Even if Ryan doesn't want to father a baby it doesnt mean that its easy on him to let another man do the honors with the woman he loves.<br>He says to me and MsV that he accepts the decision and i think he does in a way<br>but <br>i think hes trying to convince himself as much as he is us.<br>how would i feel if i was him?<br>Does he feel like i'm trying to take his place?<br>Does he feel left out?<br>Does he think we're going on without him?<br>i don't know what to do.. .. but it's not up to me is it?<br>i love ryan more than like a brother<br>prolly most people that know me know that<br>i sure as hell didn't expect to in the beginning i can promise you that<br>we couldn't stand each other.. ..<br>and sure we both take the piss outta each other even now<br>but its just for fun and in a lovin sorta way<br>i love him<br>and im worried about him<br>all i can do is let him know that i love him, respect him and want to serve him secondary to MsV<br>which is what i'm supposed to do anyway<br>the difference is that i want to<br>its not my place to say what we do<br>thats for Mistress<br>but i can tell him how much i love him<br>how much he means to me<br>and how i can't imagine my life without him in it<br>thats so sappy.. ..<br>like a new friend said on his blog <br>if you would have told me i'd feel like this a while back i woulda laughed in your face<br>all i know is now<br>and i  hope that ryan is okay</p> <p>michael </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk/2007/09/22/title~3021867/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk,2007-09-21:/2007/09/21/my_first_memee_thing~3019534/MichaelDavid2007-09-21T21:02:21+02:002007-09-21T21:02:21+02:00 <p>I stole this from MsAntLady.  <img class="smiley" src="http://www.blog.co.uk/srv/tinymce/jss/plugins/blogdeemotions/smilies/05biggrin.gif" border="0" alt="" width="15" height="15">  Hope She doesn't mind.</p> <p>TEN FIRSTS<br>First best friend: A boy named Dylan in kindergarten <br>First screen name: If i told ya that i'd have to kill ya <br>First Pet: a puppy my mom got me when i was two.  i named her baby. <br>First Piercing:  both nipples pierced in 2002<br>First Crush: lol, a little blonde haired girl named samantha in my aunt's sunday school class<br>First Record: 'Fairweather Johnson' by Hootie and the Blowfish in 1996 (i was 12 when i bought it lol) <br>First Love: Lisa - the first girl i ever fell in love with</p> <p>NINE LASTS<br>Last alcoholic beverage: pint of stella at the pub <br>Last car ride: today in my vette <br>Last movie seen: orlando -  not a new film but something someone recommended a while back<br>Last phone call made: today to a client<br>Last CD Played: some silly mozart thing of ryan's<br>Last Bubble bath: ummm lol.. .. i put norfolk lavender bubble bath in the jacuzzi a week after i got here.  that was a MESS!  boy did i get in trouble!!!   <br>Last time you cried: lets see.. .. last week when i got a beatin from MsTamsin?  </p> <p><br>EIGHT HAVE YOU EVERS<br>Have you ever dated one of your best friends: nope<br>Have you ever been arrested: hell no<br>Have you ever skinny dipped: yeah yeah in the miami surf, baby <img class="smiley" src="http://www.blog.co.uk/srv/tinymce/jss/plugins/blogdeemotions/smilies/smiley-tongue-out.gif" border="0" alt="" width="18" height="18"> <br>Have you ever been on TV: once in a commercial for a car stereo place <br>Have you ever kissed someone, and then regretted it: i've regretted kissin something- read a couple posts back- the one for the over 18s<br>Have you ever had a sex dream about someone: more than you would ever imagine<br>Have you ever had sex? well yeah, lol.</p> <p><br>SEVEN THINGS YOU ARE WEARING<br>1. black thong underwear <br>2. ring in my PA piercing<br>3. track suit bottoms<br>4. tee shirt<br>5. pony tail holder (not pink!)<br>6. gold signet ring<br>7. training collar (more like a necklace) oh and my halo <img class="smiley" src="http://www.blog.co.uk/srv/tinymce/jss/plugins/blogdeemotions/smilies/smiley-innocent.gif" border="0" alt="" width="18" height="18"></p> <p><br>SIX THINGS YOU'VE DONE TODAY<br>1. saw a client<br>2. had my piano lesson and kissed my teacher<br>3. ate breakfast and lunch (didn't get supper cause i'm punished)<br>4. fed horses <br>5. helped MsV with Her bath and getting dressed<br>6. did some work on the computer (work and play)</p> <p><br>FIVE FAVOURITE THINGS IN NO ORDER<br>1. running<br>2. mexican food <br>3. a good whipping or cbt (easy on the b cause i wanna be a daddy)<br>4. oral sex<br>5. oh hell.. any sex with a woman ( ryan being the exception to the rule)</p> <p>FOUR PEOPLE YOU CAN TELL ALMOST ANYTHING TO<br>1. Auntie <br>2. MsV<br>3. Ryan<br>4. My Guardian Angel (my mom)</p> <p><br>THREE CHOICES<br>1. Black or White: black <br>2. Hot or Cold: hot <br>3. Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate</p> <p><br>TWO THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE<br>1. become a father <br>2. sail across the atlantic with ryan for my first mate (lol)</p> <p><br>ONE THING YOU REGRET<br>looking at the free vids on <a href="http://www.herfirstgangbang.com/">www.herfirstgangbang.com</a> in a moment of sexual frustration and having MsV find out about it.  i got a week of solitary for that.  <img class="smiley" src="http://www.blog.co.uk/srv/tinymce/jss/plugins/blogdeemotions/smilies/smiley-yell.gif" border="0" alt="" width="18" height="18"> </p> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk/2007/09/21/my_first_memee_thing~3019534/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk,2007-09-21:/2007/09/21/just_two_more~3019110/MichaelDavid2007-09-21T19:21:44+02:002007-09-21T19:21:44+02:00 <p>Okay i'm sorry i'm going on but just two more little digs.  <img class="smiley" src="http://www.blog.co.uk/srv/tinymce/jss/plugins/blogdeemotions/smilies/graylaugh.gif" border="0" alt="" width="15" height="15"></p> <p> <img src="http://i167.photobucket.com/albums/u134/rgray1981/schroderpiano2.jpg" alt="" width="352" height="261"></p> <p><img src="http://i167.photobucket.com/albums/u134/rgray1981/woodstockpiano.jpg" alt="" width="251" height="271"></p> <p>And thats about how little She is in stature compared to <br>Her human property, lol!</p> <p>Okay i'm done<br>hope it was as good for the friends that know us <br>as it was for me!</p> <p>mikey boy <p> <small> <a href="http://michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk/2007/09/21/just_two_more~3019110/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk,2007-09-21:/2007/09/21/the_first_peeanny_lesson~3019010/MichaelDavid2007-09-21T18:54:10+02:002007-09-21T18:54:10+02:00 <img src="http://i167.photobucket.com/albums/u134/rgray1981/snoopyschroderbig.jpg" alt="" width="336" height="268"></p> <p>i'm sorry.. .. .. this is just toooo damn funny.<br>Know why?<br>Cause its so true to life!<br>LMAO <br>i guess ya kinda have to know us to really appreciate this. <p> <small> <a href="http://michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk/2007/09/21/the_first_peeanny_lesson~3019010/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk,2007-09-21:/2007/09/21/ryan_is_schroder~3018933/MichaelDavid2007-09-21T18:34:11+02:002007-09-21T18:34:11+02:00 <img src="http://i167.photobucket.com/albums/u134/rgray1981/schroederryan.jpg" alt="" width="390" height="275"></p> <p>That's him alright!<br>Can you say peeeanny lessons?<br>Yeeeeee Haaaaw! <p> <small> <a href="http://michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk/2007/09/21/ryan_is_schroder~3018933/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk,2007-09-21:/2007/09/21/punctuation~3018353/MichaelDavid2007-09-21T16:46:33+02:002007-09-21T16:54:49+02:00 <p>well i wrote a post early this morning and had to delete it per instruction<br>while i was gettin a talkin to i was also told off for my lack of commas and apostrophes<br>and other stuff like that.  so.. .. .. ..</p> <p>Now i have to write the 'proper' way.<br>i was told its time to grow up on paper (and computer screen). <br>ooookay<br>other rules?<br>i have to write out words all the way and not use my little abbreviations.<br>So that means no more 'ne' for any.<br>No more talkin or eatin or wankin ( Oops.. .. Did i say that?  <img class="smiley" src="http://www.blog.co.uk/srv/tinymce/jss/plugins/blogdeemotions/smilies/grayyes.gif" border="0" alt="" width="15" height="15"> )<br>If its supposed to be ing at the end i have to write or type ing.<br>i have to capitalize things.<br>The i's when referring to me can stay in lower case because this is okay with Her.<br>She says that shows that i know my place.<br>So i guess i'm gonna lose all my character.. .. at least my flavor of writinG.<br>i'm not an idiot<br>If i have to type a business letter or something official i know how to do it.<br>In my free time i have always liked to be a little more relaxed.<br>But MsV is determined to turn me from a casual American male<br>into a proper Anglo-American gentleman.<br>She says She's not tryinG to turn me into Ryan<br>but She wants to mold me into the best michael i can be.<br>Notice ANYthing above?<br>i have to capitilize Alfalfa's name because he's the boss of me too.<br>i'm the low man on the totem pole  (i am the totem pole when CF is a happy chappy - heh heh heh <img class="smiley" src="http://www.blog.co.uk/srv/tinymce/jss/plugins/blogdeemotions/smilies/graysmilewinkgrin.gif" border="0" alt="" width="15" height="15"> )<br>i also decided to make a new design for my banner and my profile picture.<br>Does everyone like it?  i'm Snoopy and Ryan is Schroder the piano playing fool, lol.<br>Oh and don't forget to play the music under my title.  <br>You have to click on it TWICE for some stupid reason<br>It's the Penis  PeanutsTheme Song.<br>Okay the lyric for today from MsV's vast record collection is:<br><br> <em>"There's a killer on the road<br>His brain is squirming like a toad<br>Take a long holiday<br>Let your children play<br>If you give this man a ride<br>Sweet family will die<br>Killer on the road"<br></em> <br>So what song is that?  <br>Hint: Its from the 60s.</p> <p>First right answer from a female wins you one night of unbridled passion with this beta boy!  <img class="smiley" src="http://www.blog.co.uk/srv/tinymce/jss/plugins/blogdeemotions/smilies/grayyes.gif" border="0" alt="" width="15" height="15"></p> <p>Love,<br>michael<br> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk/2007/09/21/punctuation~3018353/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk,2007-09-09:/2007/09/09/just_for_the_over_18s~2952028/MichaelDavid2007-09-09T19:22:01+02:002007-09-09T19:22:01+02:00 <p>well.. .. it looks like im gettin a headache to go with all the other aches<br>last night we had our little play party<br>but it wasnt really much fun for me at first<br>cause MsV did read my entry<br>and so i was gifted for an hour to MsTamsin<br>the only woman i know who could probably eclipse the sun<br>yeah.. yeah.. ill never learn<br>but neway.. .. ..<br>She wanted me to serve Her orally in a 'beneath the mountain' sort of way<br>i was lucky cause MsV tactfully didnt agree to that scenario<br>so back jabba lays on the chaise lounger thing - legs spread apart<br>theres a red thong buried in the rolls<br>but the only sign of it is a little thread across the mons and between the flaps of flesh coverin the naughty bits<br>MsV gives the hand signal for kneelin and i do that alright<br>She says 'closer' so i do that and when my face if about a foot from ground zero it hits me<br>how can i describe it?<br>mixture of sweat, fermented female musk, and spoiled fish about three weeks past its use by date<br>MsV says 'commence'<br>which ya can prolly figure out is about like a starter firing his gun<br>well i moved in just a tiny bit then hesitated cause i could feel myself gaggin<br>hesitation from a boy is not put up with by a Dominant.. .. .. no sireeee bob <br>lets just say.. if ya hesitate - They dont.<br>MsV smacked me a good one upside my head.. .. hard enough to make my ears ring<br>She shouts now - 'COMMENCE!'<br>So i close my eyes and breathe thru my mouth and get closer<br>let me help you visualize this before i go ne further<br>in all honesty there is no sign of the target<br>its mounds of fatty flesh shaped vaguely like a horseshoe<br>you can see the line and you know that somewhere beneath that pooch is the happy button-hole<br>(sorry if thats too graphic-- hey.. ..just think how i felt!)<br>so i had no choice but to root my snout around in there like a pig tryin to find the spot<br>i feel the gorge risin up in my throat and try like hell to swallow it back<br>my tounge finds the button but i cant breath ffs<br>so i pull back for air<br>big big big mistake<br>breathin in deeply through both nostrils i get the full on 'scent of a woman'<br>i lean back and <br>BURP.. .. ..  really loud<br>lotsa self talk at this point..<br>c'mon michael.. swallow.. swallow.. swallow..<br>no no.. no c'mon.. let the burp be it and get on with the fuckin job<br>swallow.. <br>ut oh.. oh god no<br>i managed to get out the words<br>'im gonna.. ..'<br>and then i puked all over the target area<br>all over her exposed flesh, the chaise lounge, and the floor<br>my only thought was<br>oh crap im gonna have to lick that up<br>but i got lucky and instead MsV and MsLiz grabbed me by the hair and pulled me away to the dungeon<br>i tell you no lie<br>i have little bald patchs from where they pulled it out<br>i was majorly mauled by the trio of them, but mainly by MsT after She cleaned Herself up<br>MsV and MsLiz had me all trussed up and ready by then<br>now MsT might weigh about 450 lbs(32 stone for you brits) <br>but that doesnt stop Her from throwin one hell of a mean punch<br>i got a couple major punches to the gut the first of which i wasnt expectin<br>then She tore into my ass<br>i cant sit down today with out usin a pillow and yelpin a bit<br>so yeah.. ok<br>im an admitted masochist<br>the beatin isnt a big deal<br>it only pissed em off that i was 'standin happy' in my loins when they were hittin me lol<br>they were talkin my language then<br>so alls well that ends well<br>ryan just got dressed up in stuff and played some of his music<br>we all learned that an erect penis can get stuck in the bell of a clarinet<br>bet Ya didnt know that huh?<br>learn something new everyday dont ya<br>neway.. .. ..<br>im not attemptin to orally serve anyone who i can smell a mile away<br>and dont any of you do it either.. .. .. lol</p> <p>love,<br>mikey </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk/2007/09/09/just_for_the_over_18s~2952028/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk,2007-09-08:/2007/09/08/guru_to_the_subs~2944608/MichaelDavid2007-09-08T10:14:35+02:002007-09-08T10:14:35+02:00 <p>lol well it seems like big brother has suddenly turned into the.. .. ..<br>::drum roll please::<br>guru to male submissives<br>now before ya say it or think it<br>im not jealous<br>hes got alot more experience than me<br>and hes been thru hell with those two idiots who were here before him<br>him and damon are my subbie gurus<br>mainly cause theyre onto something big<br>Ya know how some people get all caught up in religious fervor<br>they sorta have this glow that eminates from them like rays from the sun<br>no thats not it.. ..  you cant see it<br>you feel it though<br>when them two are together they are almost talkin on a different level to the rest of us lowly boys lol<br>course ryan worships damon<br>(damon is MsLizs numero uno sub in case you didnt know)<br>since the two guys that were here when ryan signed up were basically assholes<br>ryan chose damon as his role model<br>boy am i glad about that when i think about it<br>if hed made brian (who was his alpha when he came here) his role model i think i woulda lost any smidgen of submissiveness i had and we woulda been at each others throats lol<br>(translation:  i woulda killed him - lol)<br>but anyway.. .. ..<br>ryan is getting emails from lots of subminded guys<br>that damn blog has become like an advice column lol<br>hes livin up to the meanin of his name:  little king<br>hes gonna kill me for writin that i bet<br>cause hes not an attention seekin kinda guy<br>but he is a good role model for any guy that wants to be happy as a sub<br>his example is sometimes kinda hard to follow for an american lol<br>but hes patient and tries real hard to put up with me<br>thats gotta count for something doesnt it?<br>well todays gonna be a great day<br>cause.. .. ..<br>the sun is out<br>im gonna drive my car around<br>i have permission to barbecue ribs tonight<br>as my contribution to our 'network play evening'<br>woooooo hooooooo!<br>i just know this time to expect that big slappin session from MsTamsin<br>who if She was worth Her weight in gold <br>could reasonably carry the nickname<br>fort knox<br>oh man.. .. ..<br>nope im not gonna take that down<br>im gonna be punished probably but sheesh<br>i picked a cute way of sayin the truth  <img class="smiley" src="http://www.blog.co.uk/srv/tinymce/jss/plugins/blogdeemotions/smilies/08wink.gif" border="0" alt="" width="15" height="15"><br>i didnt just come out and say that She had a significant role in Star Wars with Carrie Fisher as Her love slave did i?<br>ooooook.. .. im gonna shut up now<br>i would like to live through my torture<br>hopefully no one will see this until tomorrow morning <br>mmmwwwwaaahhhahahahaha!  <img class="smiley" src="http://www.blog.co.uk/srv/tinymce/jss/plugins/blogdeemotions/smilies/090twisted.gif" border="0" alt="" width="15" height="15"></p> <p>the beaten and happy<br>michael  </p> <p> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk/2007/09/08/guru_to_the_subs~2944608/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk,2007-09-06:/2007/09/06/looky_what_i_got~2932765/MichaelDavid2007-09-06T07:32:08+02:002007-09-06T07:32:08+02:00 <img src="http://i167.photobucket.com/albums/u134/rgray1981/mycorvette.jpg" alt="" width="482" height="295"></p> <p><img class="smiley" src="http://www.blog.co.uk/srv/tinymce/jss/plugins/blogdeemotions/smilies/smiley-tongue-out.gif" border="0" alt="" width="18" height="18"> god im happy!!!!</p> <p>this is pretty accurate but mine has an ebony leather interior <p> <small> <a href="http://michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk/2007/09/06/looky_what_i_got~2932765/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk,2007-09-02:/2007/09/02/title~2911010/MichaelDavid2007-09-02T14:24:03+02:002007-09-02T14:33:52+02:00 <img src="http://data4.blog.de/media/690/1933690_d1da6054de_m.jpg" alt="birdsongsfaulk" hspace="5" vspace="5" width="129" height="200"> <br>i just finished this book<br>its historical fiction that was recommended by damon to ryan and me<br>(btw damon is a big history buff)<br>its made me curious about WWI<br>i plan on readin up on the real thing<br>damon said hed loan me a few books from his library if i liked this one<br>its probably a little graphic for sensitive ladies tho <br>You know who You are.. .. lol  <img class="smiley" src="http://www.blog.co.uk/srv/tinymce/jss/plugins/blogdeemotions/smilies/grayrazz.gif" border="0" alt="" width="15" height="15"><br>i think ill ask MsV if i can read up on WWI before diggin into the Churchill book<br>even tho this was a fictional story there are probably lots of real life stories like it<br>the untold stories i guess<br>MsV loves reading and has made sure that we do alot of it too<br>i think its good<br>ive never read so much in all my life<br>we dont take breaks<br>when one book is finished theres always another one waitin in the wings<br>we pick it up the next night usually<br>this one was one i read on my own.  i brought it with me on this trip for quiet times.<br>when i was sick as a f-ing dog i got about halfway through it lol<br>it took my mind off my stomach.<br>anyway.. .. .. its a good book if anyone wants to pick it up.<br>it even has a good ending <img class="smiley" src="http://www.blog.co.uk/srv/tinymce/jss/plugins/blogdeemotions/smilies/grayyes.gif" border="0" alt="" width="15" height="15"></p> <p>see ya<br>michael    </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk/2007/09/02/title~2911010/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk,2007-09-01:/2007/09/01/a_good_life~2904956/MichaelDavid2007-09-01T09:42:27+02:002007-09-02T10:51:37+02:00 <p>ive been up for a while<br>i had a nice run this morning on the treadmill and then had breakfast<br>its great that theres just about always food ready for us to eat<br>i havent been sick anymore - which is a damn good thing<br>when it happened i was worried that id spend the whole time feelin that way<br>ive just come online to write and after this ill check my mails<br>lol there wont be alot there<br>it wouldnt be a bad wager to bet theres nothing in my box<br>its a beautiful day<br>we are in sunny spain<br>another place ive never been<br>everywhere we have been has been real interestin<br>i think as an american who hasnt traveled much i find it pretty wild to be surrounded by non-english speakin people<br>it kinda puts me out of my comfort zone but not in a bad way<br>its been a good experience<br>sorta a chance to expand my awareness of the world and different cultures<br>im gonna start takin my language studies more seriously now<br>ryan got to show off some of his musical skills last night <br>theres like a little piano bar on here and ryan somehow got to play with the band for a few songs<br>hes something else.. .. and i felt proud of him when he was up there<br>when he got his little round of applause i felt sorta tight in the chest and happy for the attention he was gettin<br>i know i diss him alot about his music but he IS really good<br>real talented<br>i think he appreciates the stuff i can do too that hes not that great at<br>its the mutual admiration society lol<br>we had time to ourselves last night - MsV ryan and me - sorta settin out the fact that no matter where we are the positions we hold are immovable <br>She is still Mistress and we are still Her boys.. .. no matter what.<br>things are changin because the dynamic is evolving<br>good positive changes for all of us<br>everything was focused on me last night<br>i was the recipient of their affection and i shed some tears<br>i wont say more cause its not right to spill private things here<br>some stuff but not things that are really intimate<br>it would be classed as tmi for most people neway<br>its the difference between sex for the sake of sensation and sex because of love<br>its knowin that the people comin in contact with you in a physically intimate way have real heartfelt love for you<br>i can feel the difference and it overwhelms me sometimes<br>like it did last night<br>to lie between the two of them and feel surrounded by this sorta blanket of love just makes me cry<br>love.. .. acceptance.. .. being valued and treasured.. .. being needed and wanted.. ..<br>theres nothing better is there?<br>im a very lucky boy and i know it<br>im grateful and happy that life is good<br>im not going to waste it<br>whatever time ive got on this planet im going to spend with alot of  <br>joie de vivre  <br>see the french isnt wasted on me lol<br>the joy of life</p> <p>love,<br>michael<br> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk/2007/09/01/a_good_life~2904956/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk,2007-08-31:/2007/08/31/pic_of_brer_rabbit_and_the_tar_baby~2902461/MichaelDavid2007-08-31T18:23:52+02:002007-08-31T18:23:52+02:00 <img src="http://i167.photobucket.com/albums/u134/rgray1981/tarbaby.jpg" alt="" width="316" height="250"> <p> <small> <a href="http://michaelisbeta.blog.co.uk/2007/08/31/pic_of_brer_rabbit_and_the_tar_baby~2902461/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>